bubblyainn

Daes witout u!!! :'(

2009-10-12T23:14:00.000-07:00

Hey my dear dusty blog! Ok I noe its been long time since I last updated my blog! Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!! Ok fer ur info dis year's raya Razi brought me back home fer the first time!! Hahahaha the first gf who he bring back home! Glad I'm the one!!! N another thing is, Razi has gone to serve the nation!!! It really feels funny witout him ard.

The next thing was his hp is out of batt. He's gonna stay in the academy fer like 2 wks. How can I survive??? Alhamdulillah I'm tryin to adapt to it! 3 more daes n i'm gonna see him!!!!!!!! So happy dat I can't wait! I wonder how Razi look wit botak head. He must look cute huh? Hahahaha I really miss him haiz, but wat can I do.

Gonna update again ok! I wanna go sleep so sleepy already!!

Signing off
Ainn

P.S: I'm fuckin tired of missin u, pls come back soon! Love u botak head!

Random Entry

2009-08-15T20:36:00.000-07:00

Hello, Its been a long time since I last update my dusty lil blog. Hahahaha! Ok, currently I'm watchin Jelita on youtube. I'm bored. I wante to see Razi but he's bz now. Bz wit his werk, fishing n of corse family. I can't possibly stop him from spendin time wit his family rite, but still I nd him by my side. I miss him so much. I juz can't stop thinkin of Razi.

I'm really bored. I dunnu if its worth it waiting hangin like dis. Razi keeps breakin his promises. He promised to go out wit me todae. We were supposed to go to ECP for cyclin n bowlin. But he will always change his mind. I noe. Yesterday he went fishing wit his late Dad fren. I already told him, ifhe really go the next dae will never go out. It turns out to b true. I'm really disappointed. Razi promised me he will b back at 7+ in the morning. So i got up early dis morn juz to prepare breakfast fer juz the 2 of us but then, he ruined everything.

He called me at 9+ sayin dat he will be late till 12. Wat does dat mean? It means dere will be no breakfast fer us. I took a hard time to think wat to cook fer him. I wanted to surprise him. I cried alot today. I missed him so much. I've been waiting fer todae. Its been a long time since we last cycled n played bowlin. It was all a waste. I'm really sad. So sad dat i'm crying typin dis post. He promised Ayah too to go fer the prayers tonite. He broke his promise too. I feel so disappointed.

R we still an item? Nowdaes, we can't communicate at all. Mayb i will juz hav to wait wat till happen next. I can feel dat, he dun loves me animore. If he loves me he wouldn't do dis. He keeps hurtin me. Wat should I do? I'm gettin enuff from him. But the moment i feel I should leave him, the more I feel I love him. I still remember when the first time he outs the ring on fer me, 'Baby I janji I takkan sakit kan hati u.' But y now? I'm depressed. I juz dunnu wat should I do. I wan to loved I deserved to b loved, but not like dis.

Signing Off
AiNN

missin eu

2009-07-18T23:29:00.000-07:00

Currently watching APM 2009. Tired, had to werk dis wkend! DAMN! Aniwaes the bride I was doin todae was Naqiah's second sister. Its been a long time I saw Naqiah. Ibu n Ayah will be attending tomolo as they noes Naqiah's parents. Wat a small werld. Alhamdulillah, werkin wit Kak Anim has been great. Hopefully she's not like everyone in Sultanah.

I've been thinkin alot lately. Abt me n Razi. Are we goin to be happy in the future? We have been quarrelin everyday. I really miss the old us. I dun wan to hope fer us to be like b4. I noe its not goin to happen. Hmm.. How am i to face all dis? Razi said he nds my help to control his temper. How can I possibly help him if he doesn't help himself? We're totally changed. We r no longer happy. We will oni b happy fer less den a dae den we will quarrel the rest of the dae.

He's been losin his temper to me everyday. I can't take it animore. He will lose his temper even its somtin stupid. Y must he changed to tis extend? Does he still loves me? Am I still his gf or am I jus a place where he can lose his temper at. Like juz now, he scolded me fer goin off late frem werk. He has to understand dat not every couple dat I take care can finish on time. He was the one who let me to werk in dis line back. If he still doesn't trust mey does he let go to werk.

I'm really disapponted in him. It really feels sick to go tru dis everyday. He didn't even care if I have eaten my lunch dinner or even worse my breakfast. I haven't eat a single thing since morning. I even leave fer home witout touching the food there. Razi is not happy when I wanna have my dinner. I listened to him, I went back straight n guess wat? Deres notin to eat at home. The moral of the story is, I haven't had any of my meals fer todae.

I jus called him to make things better, but I guees not. He keeps givin me sarcarstic remarks. Keep callin stupid, 'sundal' and stuff. I nd somone who loves me. Not like dis. Am i so bad till he have to change to dis extend? I've always love him so much. More den anitin. But y must I get tis kind of treatment. He dun seem to care abt my meals animore, my feelins. I'm lack of his love now. Isi hard fer somone who has a dark history to be happy? :'(

Signing Off

AiNN

Random Entry!

2009-07-14T23:12:00.000-07:00

Ok finally I managed to find a time to update my blog. Ok fer ur info Bb really has no time to update as he's becomin more bzier tham ever n also havin a hard time meetin me, n fer ur ifo too, Bb is goin to serve the nation in October. Gonna miss him like hell. At least I still can celebrate our second Hari Raya together b4 he goes to serve the nation. Omg my lovely 'boboy' is goin to b a man. Speakin abt Bb, everything has been great even tho we quarrel everyday! Hhehehe.

Yesterday went to spend a quality time wit Bb as we didn't meet fer the last 1 week. I really enjoy the 4 hours bein in his arm. Hopefully we can do dat often. Life has been good lately, but abit tired i hav to school, werk wit Ibu n werk in the wkends too. Now I'm havin menses cramp n its really killin me. Currently Bb is on the way home. He went to Jb to send his bother off to Brunei. Aniwaes, Bb's 5th brother has came back from Syria. Den he went to his ganny's place. I'm lovin Bb more n more everytime. I juz can't live witout him. Hopefully our wish will come true. Never I thought we still managed to pull tru tis far. Alhamdulillah.

Ok family has been a bliss. On Sunday, we celebrated Ibu's 56th bdae. Kak Lynn bought the cake n meatballs. Pizzas n Old Chang Kee was my treat. Saiful bought ibu a new fan fer her present. Hahahaha. Ibu cried the moment we sang her the bdae song. N we were luffin at her. Hahahaha. Actually her bdae is dis comin Sat, but then everyone is werking so we celebrated in advance. Thats it fer todae I guess, I got to go to slp coz i hav to wake up early. Gd nite!

Signing off

AiNN

Kak Lynn's Wedding!!

2009-06-22T19:58:00.000-07:00

Hey blogger!!! Todae I'm so happy. I wanna share abt Kak Lynn's wedding. Alhamdulillah everthing went smoothly. Kak Lynn really look beautiful in all the costumes. She look really happy. I;m really happy fer her. At last she has become 'Mrs Syaiful Mirza'. The groom reached at abt 9.30am fer the solemnization ceremony. He's early! Hahahaha! Maybe he's excited n can't wait to be Kak Lynn's husband.

Syaiful n the rombongan had to wait fer Kak Lynn as she's still not ready, coz the solemnization will oni b at 10am sharp. The Kadi in-charge was Ustaz Pasuni Maulan. Kak Lynn look so beautiful in the white kebaya. The Kadi came at 10am sharp. Ayah did very well. Ayah himself nikah fer Kak Lynn. Syaiful cried b4 the nikah started. Kak Lynn toocried as she waited on the dias. Tears of joy mayb. Alhamdulillah, Syaiful oni said once n they r officially husband n wife.

Ibu b4 the solemnization ceremony, she walk away n cried. I cried too. after the solemnization, the salam-ing session. Ayah n Ibu had to sit on the pelamin, n they salam. Kak Lynn Ibu n Ayah cried. I can't hold back my tears. I cried to. Its time fer me n adek to salam Kak Lynn. Adek salam Kak Lynn first, den me. I cried so loud, hehe. I can;t even tok. I hug Kak Lynn fer a long time. Adek said I cried really loud. Fer ur info, Kak Lynn used Sultanah bridal n the make up artist in-charge was Fai. Like wtf?? She didn't say hello so I ignored her too.

After the solemnization, I went up straight away coz my face is not even ready yet. I went up alone n get myself ready. When I'm ready I went down n wait fer Bb to come. Bb told me he came wit oni his mom but den last min he told me dat his sis n brother in-lwa n Widad is comin too. I'm so excited coz get to see Widad. The moment I went down, everyone said I was preety. Hahahahaha, wat can I say! The moment I saw Bb's sister's car came. I was nervous. I juz ddunnu y. Everyone was teasing me, wat if Bb came wit a rombongan n hantaran n stuffs. I really laugh my ass off.

The moment I saw Bb, my heart melts. He look so hensem wit the vest, long sleeves n smart pants. OMG. Bb look so charming. We took a pic lah own our own but not the full view. We took a full one but wit the camera man so its gonna take time. Widad so cute. I asked her to bside me but den she has to sit bseide her mommy as her mommy need to feed her. Shes really cute. The moment she saw me, she starts smilin. Ok lets stop talkin, let the pictures do the talkin. Deres oni a few so, gonna update more when I hav the pictures!

So as u can see, Asnida is also in the picture. Yeah she came later wit her bf. Kak Lynn wearing the lengga was her third oufit of the day. She llok so gorgeous in that outfit. See! How fat am I??? Bb so bad.He snaps the pic while I'm eating! I juz can't help it. Keep eating n eating n eating. Kak Lynn sings fer Syaiful durin the dinner. So sweet n touching. Syaiful cried n kissed his wife hand! Awwwwww! Sweet! I will upload the video ok!

Ok I gtg! Update soon kays muackz!

Signing Off

AiNN

sleepless nites

2009-06-14T23:41:00.000-07:00

Heloo!! Okay currently I juz had my shower as I came back from JB. A relative wedding. So woke up really early dis mornin juz to look good. After get ready went out n fetch Cik ju n husband at wdls mrt. Its a pity that they had to wait fer us. Well as usual Daddy's Girl here was late even tho she was the one who starts to get ready first.

As usual Bb had to werk durin the wkends. He had 2 groups of customers yesterday. Den as usual he went fishin with his frens. Hmm ok let me share wat happen todae. First thing I'm totally fat!!!! I can't put on my white baju kurung!! Urgh! Damn it! Bb must b luffin at me now. I juz can't help it. When I'm happy I eat, when I'm sad I eat too. Hahahahaha so that is the reason y I'm fat now! Ok sec, otw to Jb, the weather was really hot outside. Even we on the air con in the car but it is still hot.

Thirdly, I was really hungry when I went out dis morn, didn't get to eat the macaroni goreng my mom cook early in the morn. When we reached, we salam everybody dere n den we straight go n eat. OMG! The food is terrible! I didn't finish it. Fourth, waited fer Busu's family like from 12+ to 3 den they reached. Hmm ok the bride n the groom r really cute. Same height, n the also hav the same chubbiness! Hehehehe. Seeing the bride n groom walking hand in hand together makes me think of me n Bb. How will it b when its our turn.

After Asar, we went to Giant to do some shopping. I saw dis 3 bapoks n they were like staring at me. One of them said that I'm very preety. Hehehehe! Den we went fer out dinner as all of us are hungry. Cik ju's treat. I ate Sweet Chicken Rice. *Yummy*!! Free mah hahahahahahaha!!! Den I by corn n eat it on the way hone. See that the reason y I'm FAT! Sent Cik ju n husband back home n we went back home. There are some pics dat I took, so let the pics do the talkin.

Daddy's Girl will always b Daddy's Girl

The bothers n sisters bonding is still dere

So dis is y I'm LATE!!

Mummy enjoyin the food!

Currently I really mish Bb. He's sleepin rite now. He must b tires. Not enuff sleep. He's been complainin abt his back pai. I'm really werried. Hopefully his gona b ok. I dun wan anitin to happen to him. If anitin happen to Bb, wat will happen to me? Even if anitin happen to Bb, I'll promise to myself to look after him n will never leave him to go to any other guy. Even if he's not in this werld. My heart has been closed eversince I knew him. I dun wan anione else. I oni wan him.

Dis few daes we still quarrel but still manage to pull tru. Insyallah we will get better. I love him so much dat I'm scared of losin him. But dis is all gods will. Oh Allah, pls let be wit Razi ferever. My oni wish is to be his wife n b the mother of his children. Oh Allah, pls let me cater to him.

N I really hope dat I will get my old Bb back. I really miss him. I dun nd him to see me everyday, I juz wan the loving Razi n faithful Razi, Amin.

The moment I miss most..

Signing Off

AiNN

hmmmm

2009-06-09T20:20:00.000-07:00

Hey, sorry fer not updating fer like awhile. Yeah been bz everyday. Aniwaes, first of all I would like to thank Ayah fer buying me a new lappy. Its Acer aspire 4937, I wanted to but Sony VIAO, but its too expensive. Its ok syukur Alhamdulillah, Ayah bought me dis. The second best present I ever got from ayah.

Niwaes skool is ok, n dat is the purpose y Ayah bought me dis lappy. As i already started my ICT skills. Ok but really stressful. Excel!! Hahahaha I've forgotten all abt the formula n stuffs. Alot of assignment. I miss Nurul n Deana. Nurul tranfered to another skool as she stays abit far. Deana has finished her corse. Its really boring witout them.

Niwaes Kak Lynn's weddin is left wit oni a week! Hahahaha I'm gettin nervous. I juz dunnu y. Mayb I'm afraid that the bonding that we used to have will b gone, but hopefully its not so soon as Kak Lynn is staying wit us. Somes stuffs are ready n somes are not n that is our costumes! OUR meaning me, Ibu n Adek. Angela said it will b ready next week. n it better b! Or else I hav notin to wear n to match my gold snake skin shoe dat PC chose fer me.

Talkin abt PC, makes me wanna cry. Wateve happens todae was really unfergettable. I really hope PC would forgive. I juz dunnu wat came over me. He came over to help me to clean some stuffs and put up the curtains in my room. We quarrel over d washin machine. The washin machine is spoilt. It can't spin. He tried to help me but then I shouted at him. I didn't mean it. He shouted at me back. He told me he wanna go home but i dun allow him.

He almost break the gate coz I didn't wanna open the gate. I shouted at him and started to beat him. I even mention somtin unpleasant abt his late Dad. I really didn't mean it. He slapped me twice and punch me in the nose. I noe PC is angry, I dun blame him. I continued hittin him n dis time round in the head. I really dunnu wats wrong wit me till I do all those stupid things. PC went to the kitchen n take a knife n asked me to kill him. Of corse I wouldn't do that.

We end up cryin together in each others arms but then he pushed me away. I noe he's still upset abt wat I said abt his late dad. Actually wateve he said abt my parents I will never say anitin back, but I really dunnu wat came over me to do hurt PC's feelings. I noe dis time I really hurt PC. I deserve it when PC slapped n punch me. I really deserve it, I deserves all the blue blacks. Baby, I'm really sorry, even tho u forgive me, but I still feel bad n I believe it will stay forever.

Okay, enuff abt it. Lets tok abt ou loving part should I say? Hehehe. Well we r the average mode. Hmm.. well, dere's up n down in r'ships rite. I'm sure we will work it out. It is juz dat PC need som space n can't give in. I'm too afraid of losin him. I juz dunnu y. I'm afraid he mite cheat on me again. I'm too afraid if he mite remember his Xs or somtin. Me n my childish mind. If he dun love me n stuffs, he wonuld't have waited fer 1 month n 10 daes fer me, hehehe.

I still remember when I rejectd him a few times even tho I already hav feelins fer him. I didn't noe that we really had a nice n sweet memories hahahah! I do really miss all those nice n sweet memories. How I wish I could REWIND n FREEZE the moment forever. I wanna b wit PC forever. I wanna shout my lungs out to tell the whole world that I LOVE MD SYIRAZI BIN CHARMAN more than anitin in dis world! He's my everything, my fren, my bestfren, my bf, my future, my LOVE, my LIFE n my DESTINY, JAI HO!!

I LOVE U

Signing Off

AiNN

disappointed

2009-04-27T03:09:00.000-07:00

Life is really unfair. I'm still not on good terms wit my family n PC too. I believe my family will still b there fer still coz I'm still a member of them, but as fer PC, I'm not sure. Dere's somtin he said dat made me feel so uncomfortable. Can't slp. I hav dis strong feelins dat he no longer loves me like he used to. Things are gettin worse. Its not lovin as b4. Not as happy as b4. Our relationship is now at the edge n waitin fer time to fall into the river like waterfall. Thing r left hangin. My feelings r left hangin. Our love r left hangin. Our promise too r left hangin.

It really breaks my heart. Pc when fer fishing juz now as usual. He used to look fer me even he's outside. Wat came over him todae, he totally ignored me. Didn't call me n stuffs like dat. N now da his fone is spoilt, he blamed me fer dat. Well maybe its my fault too, but I can't juz stop myself from bein worried. I'm worried bcoz I love him too much dat I dun wanna lose him. He dun understand dat. Now its goin to b difficult to get tru him as all of his fone are spoilt. Who am I goin to turn to? Who?

Isit wrong fer me to love him? He's not havin time fer me, he's not even here whenever I nd him. I'm sick of all dis. I nd a shoulder to cry on, I nd somone who can love me, I nd somone who can treat me well. He asked me to replace him a new fone as I spoilt his. His hp bills I'm settling fer him, nowdays when we go out we used up my money. I dun mind at all. But he's becomin more n more like my x who expect me to provide him money n stuffs. He even talked like him now. I dun mind not gettin presents fer our monthsary, I dun mind giving him every month but when it come to my bdae its still notin I still keep my mouth shut, n now he's askin me to replace him his hp??

B do u noe dat I'm havin difficulties rite now wit my sch fees. If I dun pay within dis 2 wks I can't attend the class. PC agreed to pay his hp bills on his own after the first payment. Now its the other way round. He asked me to pay. As I'm the one who wanted to buy the fone so much. If I noe dis would happen, I won't ask PC fer help. I have alot of things to settle. I still hav me singtel bill hangin, my sch fees, my hair stylin class fee, but PC dun understand. Where is all the fairness in this werld?

I asked PC, ' Kalo btol kite ade jodoh mcmne ni b? Masih mcm ni jgak?'. He replied dis, which really breaks my heart, ' Mintak2 jgn, suir uh kalo ade jodoh pon'. It really breaks my heart. He doesn't wanna b wit me animore. I asked if he really mean't wat he said, n he said yes. Y do I get hurt everytime? Dis is the first time a guy ever hurt me dis much. Wat am I supposed to do? How could he said dat to me? It wasn't me who really wants this relationship at the first place. It was him. Y must he hurt me after all I've done fer him, after wat we went tru. Y must he hurt me so much after he make me fall fer him deeply.

I've always tot he would b different from others, he would treat me nicely, but no. He's the same. I miss the old him so badly. Wat should I do? Wat will happen to me if we r not together animore? Wat will happen to me? I've given him everythin dat I'm not supposed. I dunnu if I'm still strong to hold on. Its seems dat the more I'm holdin on, the more he hurts me.

Allah, pls give me back my Razi, give me back the happiness we used to have, pls change him to a nicer person. I love him too much. I want to b wit him the rest of my life. How I wished he would tell me that he's blessed havin me in his life, but never even once he said dat. Allah, pls give his heart back to me. I can't live my life witout him. I've never regret even after he did alot of stuffs b4 me, it is juz dat I'm so disappointed, my love n patience is not bein appreciated.

Hopefully everything would change as soon as possible. *Broken Hearted*

Love
AiNN

untitled

2009-04-26T00:38:00.000-07:00

I'm officially 20! Notin special happen on my bdae. Not like last few years. Still quarrelin wit both family n PC. No singin of bdae song, no blowin candles, no wish n no cake cutting. How pathetic can dat b? Tot they will hav a surprise or somtin, but no. I was hopin dere would b presents, cake, surprises or things dat were suppose to happen on bdaes. Notin of that happen. No one from my family wish me my bdae. Its really sad.

Oni PC wish me, my cuzzins n some frens. I really miss the time where my family used to surprise me on my bdae wit presents, good food, cake or wateve they can come up wit, but none of it happen. I even quarrel wit PC on my bdae. I asked him to decide fer me wat to wear. He's very particular abt my dressing, but the thing is I'm getting fatter n fatter. I'm on a budget to go shopping.

He ended up comin to my place while I'm all ready wit my make up on. Dis year's bdae was really a jinx. N ya PC didn't get me a pressie too. Well I hav to understand dat he has some other things to settle too, but if dat somone love the other person, little things would make dat somone happy. At least dere's somtin dat I can tell my children in the future, wat did their father do or give me on special occasions like dis, but notin happen. I was hopin fer PC to give me a surprise or somtin too, but he too came wit notin. I dun wan to beg him fer pressie like I did last year. We ended up quarrelin n it breaks my heart to think that i get my bdae pressie after beggin him.

So end up we went to his place to give Widad her bdae pressie which was overdue fer 2 wks. She's cute. Thank god she loves the present. How I wish I could turn back the time so that I can b like her age now. Where ur family celebrates ur bdae wit u, sings fer u. I miss all dat so much. I guess as years pass by, ppl will ferget my bdae. Den we went to vivo fer a simple dinner at the simple hawker centre, took some pictures n go back home. I still remember a few daes b4 my bdae, PC promised to think of somtin fer my bdae, but everythin went wrong. I really hate my bdae dis year.

Ppl can't just blame me, but dats me, who doesn't like surprises, presents n stuffs. I juz dun wanna say much. Niwaes things are still the same. Notin change, infact its gettin worse. PC have been spendin more time wit his cuzzin. Now almost every wkend PC would leave me alone n go fishin. No more dates on the wkend, no more eatin out together no more watchin movies, no more spendin ample time like we used to. Wat can I say, PC said its goin to b like dat n it will never change. I have to endure it I guess.

I really miss us strollin along East Coast beach, I really miss us picthin our tent from the mornin till the evening, I really miss eatin Pizzas at Pizza Hut on our monthsary, I really miss celebratin our monthsary, I really miss watchin movies, I really miss spending time together. I juz can't force PC to be in my way, but if he really love me he would do som sacrifices. Now he keep spendin his time at the boat, even on werkin daes. We seldom talk, sms, chat.

I dunnu how long will I b strong to go tru all dis. PC promised to send me to class but as usual he broke dat promise. Ppl in my class have been askin since past few wks. I really miss the time where PC send me fer classes, fetch me from classes. All of that didn't happen again. I dunnu y, but my tears r rollin down while I'm typin. I felt so jealous whenever I saw my frens classmates bein sent to class by their bf, fiance or husband, while mine r always bz. I felt so jealous seein couple spendin time while I can't.

I'm trying to understand PC, infact I'm forcing myself to bcoz I love him so much. But PC dun understand me. He always want me to listen to everthin dat he wants, but not to wat I want. I miss everythin dat we had last time. Everythin da happen b4 I caught PC cheatin on me, bcoz that was the most wonderful moment. How will it b if we r meant to b together, isit gonna b dis way still or worse? Will he give me back the happiness that we had b4?

Wat should I do? *Confused*

Love
AiNN

down

2009-04-10T23:47:00.000-07:00

Yes its me again updating dis blog. PC is not free animore. I guess dis blog will me oni mine instead of US. I dunnu like I've said I'm confused rite now. I nd PC so much. I miss him so much n I wan to b in his arms so badly. He didn't even say he miss me too. I'm wonderin y everything has to changed.

PC have been spending more time wit his fren n one of his cuzzin. In fact he's spending time wit them rite now. He sees his cuzzin almost everyday, he goes fishin wit tis one fren fer like 2-3 times a wk n he can oni meet me once a wk. How pathetic can dat b? If I wanna meet him even if its once a wk, I would hav to beg him like a begger. He won't ask me out or wateve till I have to beg him. I hav dis feelin dat he's sick of me. I can feel it even he didn't say it. I really miss PC.

I miss the times where he always fetch me frem werk especially on the wkends. I used to b very bz last time. PC was mad at me. Now den I understand how PC felt dat time. Infact, I understand how PC felt from months back. Mayb I hav to adapt to the change. I'm afraid dat I'm not strong enuff n mite not b able to hold on. I love PC so much. More den anitin, I juz dun feel bein loved, bein missed, bein pampered by him animore. I miss all dat. Whenever I pass by the bench where I agreed to b his gf, it makes my heart smile.

Dats the dae where we first hold hand together, dats the dae where he first kiss me. At dat point of time I felt dat he's really in love wit me. Well the very first, PC wants dis relationship so much. But y he has to change now. I really miss PC. I hope he would change. I love u. 2 more daes.

Lots of love
AiNN

speechless

2009-04-09T20:23:00.000-07:00

I dunnu how should I let out my feelings rite now. I feel like I'm at lost. Lost of everything. Attention, Family, work and of corse PC. Everything is in a mess rite now. I dunnu if I'm strong enuff to go tru all dis. Wat am I suppposed to do? First I've been quarrelin wit my family since the last Sat, n it is still not over. My parents haven't been tokin to me since dat dae. Well my bdae is 3 daes from now n everyon at home is ignoring me.

Second of corse work! Mom didn't wake me up as usual as wake me up early in the mornin to work wit her. Yeah coz if I dun go to work means no money allowance, no money means no going out!

Third PC, ever since PC passed his Boat Theory, he's totally a change person. I'm proud of him of corse. He had to take the test alot of times, n he even had to renew the theory. I'm really proud of him, but ever since, he's been bz wit his boat. Well I'm not mad at all if he spends his time on the boat, I do understand that the boat was the oni thing dat is left after PC's dad passed away. I believe that boat bring memories from the past with his dad.

I can't possibly ask PC to leave the boat juz like dat. I'm not that heartless. It is juz dat PC totally fergot that he has a gf rite now. All I wan is juz his attention. He's totally not here when I nd him most. Whenever I brought up the subject, he would say dis, 'U jgn nak mintak simpati dari i uh' Ouch~ Yes dats hurt. Who am i supposed to go to when he's the oni one left fer me to share wit. Now wat am I supposed to do. I really miss the times where he used to be here 4 me, but not animore. I'm livin in fantasy I guessed. I hav to wake up n face the reality. I have face the fact that everything has changed now.

He's been very bz till he didn't even ask me if i had my meals or wat. He will oni ask me once n dats it. We used to talk alot of things on the fone, but now all dat has gone. Everything is gone. Day by day I feel like I'm losing PC. PC told me I was the one to blame. I pushed him away from me. I dunnu I'm really confused. I really miss bein loved by him. I really miss al the stuff we do together. Its been along time we sped our quality time together.

I dunnu if PC is still the same PC. He's more into his own life than our life together. Somtimes I have to beg him if he loves me, miss me, miss the older times. Everything has changed. PC used to call or sms me during his break time jus to make sure I'm ok, but not animore. He will b givin me alot of reasons. No enuff time, break is oni 5 mins. He always wanna b the first one to leave his work place when the time is up, now I juz dunnu wat is holdin him at work.

Wat should I do to make dis relationship strong. PC ever told me dat I'm suffocatin him. Keep callin n sms-ing him. But y after 13 months he decides to cut everything down. I juz can't help it. PC even said if I were to b wit other guys, the guy would hav leave me long time ago. Is he regrettin now? PC even said dis, 'Patotlah x ko suke pukol ko dulu ehk'. It hurts of corse, but I juz can't be angry at PC fer a long time. He's really my weakness. I can't b mad at fer long. Juz wat spell he cast on me. The more he scold me or wateve it feels the more I nd him.

I juz wan us to b happy as b4, as other couples. Its true dat in relationships deres are ups n downs, but from wat I can see from our relationships, we have more downs den the ups. Even till now PC didn't even care to sms or kol me juz to ask if I had my dinner. I didn't have anitin since I woke up. No one at home cares, including PC. I've always think abt PC in wateve I do, but does he think of me? How I feel? I dunnu. How I wish I could read his mind see tru his heart if I still have a place in it.

I've strike out some of the wish in the wishlist as I noe it will never happen. So ya. I guess havin the OLD Razi as my b'dae present will never b granted. Never will. Mayb I'm forcing him to b in my way. Mayb I should even ferget abt celebrating my bdae. Dats all I guess 4 now. Ibu n Ayah I'm sori, mayb wat I've said really hurts u. PC, I really love u so much, more den I love bein a make up artist. I juz wan u to noe dat ur very special to me in every way. Its ok if I'm not special to u or important to u, but ur really important in my life. Notin can stop dat, coz every fresh air dat I breathe is juz 4 u. 3 more daes.

Lots of love
AiNN

bleargh!

2009-04-04T20:53:00.000-07:00

Wat a boring wkend!! Yeah its really boring. been havin a boring wkend fer the past few months. Well both me n PC hav been bz lately. Especially PC, been bz wit werk. Yes PC have found a job n guess wat? He's a chef in Pastamania! My all time fav or should I say our all time fav restaurant. Now dat Pastamania is HALAL we keep dinin in Pastamania. Hahahaha.. I'll never get sick of Pastamania n now PC noes how to cook I'll make sure he cook fer me.

Niwaes back to the story, PC have been very bz wit werk, boat fishin. Aniwaes PC passed his theory, n that will make him more busier den ever. We seldom spen time now. We oni meet once a wk. How pathetic can dat b. We will oni meet at my place. Watch tv together n eat. Dats all dat we do. Even now PC is out fishin. Haiz.. Juz when can we hav our own time like b4. Hopefully it will happen one day. Its really bored at home doin notin.

Aniwaes I bought dis 2 palletes of make up, one of it is blusher n the other one is a neutral colour eyeshadow. Hopefully tomorrow I can collect it. Now I'm really bored. PC is still outside havin DINNER I guess wit his lovely frens. Haiz.. I really miss spendin the whole dae wit him.

Aniwaes I'm countin down. 8 more daes n I'm another year older!!!!!!

Signing Off
AiNN

My First Blogging

2009-02-18T10:16:00.000-08:00

Test Test Test....ok...this is my first first first time blogging BB...

Hmm first off all what i want to say is I'M SORRY FOR HURTING U AGAIN N AGAIN N AGAIN..I just can't control myself sometimes when I'M mad at u bb. but in my heart i still love u although im mad at u..i just don't know wats the meaning of romantic.i try 2.bt i keep on failling.DON'T EVER SAY THAT I DON'T LOVE U..who say??yes i never never never ever show it up...BUT in my heart U ONLY U!ONLY U!1 N ONLY I LOVE. YES!im not as romantic as other ppl la...but thats me..i've been trying to be romantic.bt i dnt know la u notice it or not..haiz...the main thing i want to focus is...to control my temper!!!!u see now?i always said that i want to break. but in my heart?only god know..lets say when we r together n what if i said 'I NAK CERAI'??how?i just don't know la bb...sometime u just cant blame me for that...i think for this i really really need ur help..to guide me...can sayang?i really love u...i won't regret to have Girlfwen or in future should i say my wife?hmm...having u in my life...is so so so wonderfull...thanks to u to ans my comment the first time we chat..if not....i DNT KNOW WHO IS AINN! she's sweet,lovely,kind,helpfull,pretty,Fat!ya its alright as long as u happy sweet heart...im sorry for hurting u syg..can u forgive me my sweetheart? I, Muhammad Syirazi Bin Charman promise to take care of Siti Noor'Ain Bte Yaacob until the last breath of me.....GOD's WILLING....Loving u always n always dear...ok la...me nk tdo..penat sangat..nite my love...MUACKZ!

bleagh!!

2009-02-02T23:23:00.000-08:00

Bored bored bored! Niwaes Happy 1st year anni to the both of us. We didn't really celebrate it actually or should I say we didn't celebrate it at all? All we do now is juz quarrelin. Almost everyday, or should I say EVERYDAY? I dunnu wat should I do or say. Alot of things is runnig tru my mind now. I've been thinkin alot but still it didn't come to any conclusion, so I've decided to juz write it here n keep quite.

I really dunnu how should I say dis, I'm afraid I might hurt PC's feelin. But the more I keep it to myself, I'm hurtin myself even more den anitin else. I really dunnu how to bring dis matter up to PC. I'm sorry PC if this post is goin to hurt u, but I hav no choice, I wouldn't want to be sharing wit anione else. I hope u would understand.

Actually its notin much dat bothers me. Its actually abt our 1st year anni. It is juz dat I'm truly sad that we didn't celebtare our 1st year anni as we planned abt months ago. I'm happy dat we already reached to wat we've always wanted. But it is juz dat, 1st year anni oni comes once in a lifetime. We didn't take the opportunity to celebrate it. Instead of bein happy on our annivesary, we keep quarrelin non-stop.

Its not dat I want us to be like others so much. I dun expect our anni to be celebrated in a high class restaurant, with expensive gifts or anitin. We used to plan wat we wanna do fer our monthsary, but its disappointing when we didn't even noe wat we wanna do where we wanna go fer our annivesary. Hopefully our 2nd anni would b a better 1.

I'm still happy dat we've made it dis far. For a start dis is good enuff. Its really difficult to maintain dis realtionship but we still managed to pull tru. We almost put an end to dis relationship on our 1st annivesary but I'm glad we're still together. Our love is really strong I guess. Hopefully dat won't happen again. Dats it fer now I guess, update soon!

Signing Off
AiNN

My Everythin

2009-01-20T22:32:00.000-08:00

Gosh!! Its been more den a month I last blogging! Wait fer PC(Prince Charming) to update, till its almost to our 1st year anni. Wait, did I mention abt our 1st year??!! Yesh I did!! Omg!! I really dun believe it. We really have made dis far. Alhamdulillah syukur kepade Tuhan! Yeah we're left wit 9 more daes. Ok lets get way back in 2007! Wahahahahaha!!

Somewhere in November 2007, I was browsing ard my MSN messenger n I saw PC dere wit his tag line goin like dis, 'All girls are the same!' Dis is how I exactly knew him.. I decided to tell him off. Kite start bertekak abt this thing n bedame frens. We talked on the MSN everyday n nite. We didn't even miss a nite talkin to each other. There's one point of time where he's not online, I already starts to mish him. I even asked myself, 'Am I fallin fer him?!'. I juz kept tat feelin n continueing talkin to him as i'm still not sure of that feelin.

Early December, PC decided to ask me out fer a movie. I agreed to meet the next day but Ibu didn't allow me to go. I even asked PC to wake me up in the morning. Pity me, I was really lookin ferwerd meeting PC at that time. On the 10 December 2007, it was my first day of school in Cosmoprof. I remembered him wishing me luck fer first day of school. So sweet of him. Then on the 18 December 2007, we decided to meet as that was the only chance where I can meet PC as I'm schoolin. So 19 December was our first date! PC waited fer me at Plaza Sing, fer ur info Pc waited fer 2 solid hrs.

Pity PC, PC tot I'm not goin to meet him. I was late coz I was held up in class. Once I finished my class, I ran all the way to Dhoby Ghaut MRT station as PC told me he's waitin fer me dere n if I dun reached in 5 mins time he's goin back. I ran to the north west line station, I look fer him but he's not dere. I almost cried as I tot he left me. I called him n asked him where is he, he waited fer me at the north east line. I ran all the way there n stopped when I saw him. I pretended cool while actually I'm not. HAHAHAHAHA!!

He really pulled a long face. Wat do u expect, I was later fer 2 hrs. I apologised to him n den we went to Plaza Sing to have our lunch as planned. I wanted to eat Pastamania so off we go! I actually wanted pay myself but he decided to pay so yeah. He is a gentleman! I have to admit dat ou first date was totally boring! No conversation! No eye contact! LAME! Yeah I noe!! So I tot PC wasn't my type. Hehehehehe. After the lunch he sent me back home, still no conversation! Reached Admiralty MRT we went out of the train n he told me he has somtin to attend to.

So I waited fer PC to take the train back to Dhoby Ghaut. I sms-ed him, 'I hrp u tak serik kuar ngan I'. Went back n waited fer PC to online but sadly he didn't. PC msged me the next day tellin me dat he's goin KL fer holiday wit his family. So yeah he went. MSN witout PC was really bored. I really miss him. Wat came over me, I told him dat I didn't wanna keep in touch wit him animore. I even blocked him, but when he's back den I realised I've fallen fer him. I apologised to him n asked fer another chance.

Lucky me, PC gave me another chance. We still meet each other. Almost everyday he fetched me from school. He even followed me to meet my cuzzin. When we didn't meet, I started mishin him so badly. It seems dat I can't do witout him. I also hinted him abt my feelings towerds him. Dis was wat I hinted to him, 'Wat if deres someone who likes u very much?'. On the new year's eve, he went to Ritz Carlton n celebrate new year's eve wit his family. On that evening we had a nice talk. Later at nite, den PC confessed dat he actually had feelins fer me too. I was so happy dat I can't stop smilin while talkin to PC. Since dat day onwerds, we meet almost everyday.

PC alot of times told me that he wants me to be his gf n keep sayin, 'Ain, Saya nak awk!', but I'm still not ready, till one fine day on the 27 January 2008, I went to Bukit Batok as Iffa sister in law is gettin engaged. I did the make up fer her. I asked PC to fetched me after dat. Abt 5+ PC reached n he was shocked to see alot of guys under the void deck. I dunnu them as they were Alip's n Pian's frens. PC really pulled a long face. He always tot dat I'm cheap. So on the way back, we talk as usual, as I remembered, PC keep sayin dat he's goin to BITE me. I dared him to, so on the way back, he grabbed me by the neck. Its really painful! Fer ur info, dat was the first time touched me. I respect him fer dat. I believe fer other guys they must have taken advantage if they knew the gal also hav feelins fer them.

Back to the story, he really grabbed me dat I pushed him away. We didn't talk till I reached home. PC was disappoited coz he didn't follow his family juz to meet me. Isn't dat sweet. PC gave me 2 options. Its either I give him an ans or he will not see me again. I arranged to meet him the next 2 daes as i still nd to think. As usual he fetched me from school. He wants me to accompany him to buy his bag, but instead of me following him, PC followed me Linda looking fer presents.

PC didn't tell me dat he's hungry. He went to the Coffee Bean to get an ice blended fer himself. Linda went home n PC sent me back home too. We juz kept quite tru out the journey back home. He dun expect me to juz say it dat I accept him. When we reached my place, I asked him, if he had anitin to asked me. PC kept shakin his head. I gave up n I went up. PC msg-ed me sayin dat he will not move from here till he gets an ans frem me.

I went down again n pulled him to 702. We sat dere n talked. I was expectin PC to bring up dat subject but still he didn't. I gave up so I brought up dat subject. Dis is how it goes.

(Ain)'Abt the ans, I da fikir masak2, I accept.'

(Razi)'Accept ape?'

(Ain)'U dun expect me to say it kan.'

(Razi)'Alah ckp jelah cpat. My fren da tunggu me ni.'

(Ain)'I accept u to be my bf, I da ready.'

(Razi)....[Lookin at his watch]

(Ain)'Da lah, mungkin I da terlambat.'[Gettin up to leave PC]

(Razi)...[Pullin me back n make me sit down next to him] 'K lah, Ain, sudi tak u jadi gf i?'

(Ain) ...[tersenyum malu n noddin my head]

(Razi)'I nak dgr dari mulot u.'

(Ain)'I sudi n da ready nak jadi gf u.'

29 January 2008 at 7 pm, a date n time to remember. Till todae, I still remember wat happened dat dae. Till todae, I still love PC more den anitin. The moment I accepted him, I promised to myself dat he will always b the oni one in my life n till todae, I'm still holdin on to dat promise. We went tru alot together, we even almost end our relationship but still we managed to pull tru. Even tho now we hardly have time fer each other, but still my love fer him never die. He still accepts me fer who n wat I am even after noing my dark history. It really touched me.

I've never regretted bein his gf even tho there's one point of time where I noe I can't replace his ex's place. Hopefully now I do. PC mayb younger den me, not as romantic as other guys, or watever but who cares. I really love him. He's my strenght to my weakness, my sunshine to brighten up my day, my happiness when I'm sad, he's my everythin. He means the werld to me. He's the reason y I'm still livin my life like any other gals out dere. I can't imagine my life witout PC.

Baby, thankz fer everythin u've done. I'm really proud of us. I've never been so faithful to a guy like I did to u, I've never loved a guy dis much. U were the first one to my everything. I'm happy dat I met u. Thankz fer giving me the chance when we were datin last time. I really appreciate wat u've done fer me all dis while. Dis post is specially fer u. N the song that ur currently listening on dis blog, is dedicated to u syg. I love u now, later tomorrow, FOREVER

Signing Off
AiNN

Thankz Baby Razi!!!!

2008-12-12T00:26:00.000-08:00

First of all, thankz Bb fer lettin me keepin tis precious blog of mine n also on agreeing to share tis acct wit me! But make sure u update k Bb! Hmm cyg Bb! Bb I'm sorie fer everything dat I've done k syg, I promise as long as I'm still breathin, I'll take care of u k bushuk, coz every air dat breathe in is juz fer u! I'm missin u rite now, wondering wat ur doin now.

Hmm.. I can't wait fer 29 to come n we will be together fer 11 months. Aniwaes Bb, in a week time is gonna b 19 Dec. Do u remember dat was the date we first met. Hehehehe I made u wait fer like 2 hrs, sorry syg hehehe. Time really flies very fast. Till todae I still can't believe dat ur mine n its goin to b a year.

Even tho we almost quarrel everyday, I've never regretted bein ur gf even till todae. I'm lovin u more n more every single day. Bb, I noe ur not romantic or wateve lah, but still I've never regretted bein ur gf. I'm really proud of us, we manage to stay together even tho we almost end tis r'ship. I really can't imagine my life witout u, I dunnu wat will become of me.

Aniwaes thankz Bb fer repairing my comp fer me. Ur my one n oni HERO!! Wahahahahaha!! Lets ferget abt wat happen b4 uh n now we start fresh k syg. I love u now, later, tomorrow, next wk, next year, FOREVER. Dun ferget to update!

Signing Off
AiNN

Fallin in LOVE again!!

2008-12-09T23:58:00.000-08:00

Hey ppl!! How hav u been?? Hehehe.. Alhamdulillah everything's fine now! Things between me n Prince Charming is better now. Met him juz now, after a long week witout meetin him. I'm so happy! Followed him to Jln Buroh, as usual accompanied him to 'Pimp his ride'! Wahahahaha! I wanted to help wit the painting but Prince Charming didn't let me as he doesn't wan me to tire myself. Ain't he sweet.

Aniwaes, Alhamdulillah Prince Charming's mom reached Mecca safely. Hopefully she's ok dere n be back safely to Spore! Currently Prince Charming been livin wit his siblings. Pity him, movin another to another house everyday. Aniwaes I'm gonna start my school tomorrow! I really can't wait! Prince Charming lend me his jacket. Sooooo sweeeeeeeeet of him!

Hopefully things between me n Prince Charming will be better each day, Insyallah. 20 more days we will be together fer 11 months, and another month will be our first year. Time really flies very fast. I'm really proud of us, we really went tru alot together. Even tho we quarrel almost everyday, we still managed to pull tru, we noe that we still nd each other. I hope our dream will come true rite Baby! Here's somtin sweet fer my Prince Charming, hopefully he reads it! Hahahaha!

You are so perfect
You are so beautiful tru my eyes
You always make me wan to compliment you

Every step I take
I will always remember you
I can't imagine my life witout ur love

You held my hands
At times when I'm weak n down
You whispered the words n drove my worries away

Dun you ever leave me
I can't go tru my life witout you
Only wit you I can

You are my blood
You are my heart
You are my life
You make me complete
My love you are so perfect

Gotta go to slp now. Hopefully Prince Charming can send me to school! Love him more n more everyday!!!

Signing off
BuBBLy AiNN

Down Down Down!!

2008-11-21T23:08:00.000-08:00

Down down down!! Life is really unfair!! I'll update soon, been very bz! OMG wat should I do!

'Ainn b STRONG!'

Signing Off

BuBBLy AiNN

Random Entry!

2008-11-09T19:47:00.000-08:00

Hey ppl.. Sori fer the late update. Been very bz!! Hmm currently juz came back frem werk. Yeah, I'm gonna b very bz fer the next few weekends. I'm really tired. Everyday I have to wake up early. Weekdays I've been helping Ibu n weekends I've been bz doin make up. I dun hav the chance to wake up late. Until next week. Aniwaes I'm havin an exam next Friday. Wish me luck ya!

Aniwaes things between me n Prince Charming has been better. Alhamdulillah, we've managed to pull tru even tho we almost give up, coz we noe we still love each other n we need each other in our life. Thankz Allah fer answering my prayers. Prince Charming promise me dat he will try to change fer the sake of our happiness. Thankz Prince Charming. I hope he would really change. I've gave him alot of chances n dis time I hope Prince Charming won't disappoint me.

Next Sat we will be celebrating Prince Charming's n Kak Lynn's bdae at Changi beach as we r goin to hav a bbq. Can't wait!! Its been a long time dat I spent the 24 hrs wit Prince Charming. I didn't get Prince Charming any present fer his bdae as I'm broke, but I promised him abit later. Currently Prince Charming is werking. Mish him badly. How I wish he's here wit me. I really want to b in his arms.

I tink dats it fer todae. I'm really tired. I wanna hav my shower n rest. I hope Prince Charming wouls call me later, he's bz rite now. Mish u loads Prince Charming.

Signing Off

Bored Bored Bored!!

2008-10-16T02:05:00.000-07:00

Oh Allah!! Plz help me!! I can't stand all dis! U guyz must b thinkin wat type of problem I'm goin tru now! Wahahahahaha!!! Notin actually, I'm juz bored! Everyone at home is asleep, Prince Charming is also asleep! Its already 1.39am haha of corse he's asleep! I mish him so badly! He's been so bz lately!

Yesterday, Prince Charming made me n his Mom so worried. He went fer kayaking yesterday at werk. He was supposed to finish his werk at 6. I've been callin him from 5+ to ask if he's done. He didn't answer. I started crying like hell. Hahahahaha, I dunnu who to call, I called Kak Lynn to ask fer help. Kak Lynn tried callin Prince Charming but there's still no answer. I had no other choice but to call his Mom n asked if Prince Charming called her. His Mom sound so worried, she also tried callin Prince Charming but no answer.

Prince Charming was supposed to be at his Sister's place by 6+ his Mom said. Even Prince Charming told me yesterday morning b4 he went to werk. I promised his Mom that I'll call her back if I get tru Prince Charming. I called n called n called. Ibu keep scaring me. 'Jgn jgn, Razi kene kidnap tak?' That's wat Ibu said to me. Kak Lynn n me luff like hell but at the same time I almost cried. I called n called n called again n dis time Prince Charming answered. Syukur Alhamdulillah!

I told him not to do it again. He finished late as he had to kayak to afew places I tink. Hehehe. I called Prince Charming's Mom n told her that I got tru him n his Mom thank me. His Mom sound frenly over the fone. Talked to Prince Charming juz now fer awhile n guess wat?? Prince Charming's Mom invited me to Prince Charming's Sis open house dis Sat. Oh Allah.. Thank you so much fer answering my prayers. Alhamdulillah.

I mish my Prince Charming so much. Hmm currently I'm still lookin fer part time job n still considering wat subject n where to further my studies. I'm so excited! I can't wait to go back to school. Okie the other day I watch on how woman delivering babies. OMG! I really can't watch it actually. Its like, I can feel the pain. Hmm.. but babies r cute. Hope Kak Lynn can confirm the dates fe her weddings n soon we gonna hav baby!!!!!

That its fer tonite guess. I really mish my bushuk Prince Charming! Love u syg!! Muackz!!

Signing Off

BuBBLy AiNN

Random Entry!

2008-10-07T01:31:00.000-07:00

Hello!! Yeah as euu ppl can see thats our raya pic. Deres a few but too lazy to upload! Wahahahaha!! There are gonna b more pics comin up. Okie on Sunday, at last I got to see my Prince Charming. I was so happy! Followed him to AMK to visit one of his frens place. We quarrel the nite b4 on somtin stupid until Prince Chamrming decide not to see me. So the the Sunday mornin I apologized to till he agree to see me. When Prince Charming reached my place, I was like "OMG!! He's so Chamrming!!"

Prince Charming look so handsome in the baju melayu I chose fer him the other time. Reached AMK abt 5 stay there abt an hour n off to my place. Yeah I noe its pathetic goin to oni one place! Hahahaha but I dun care as long as I can be wit my Prince Charming. Otw back to my place, Prince Charming slept tru out the journey. He's too tired I guess, not enuff rest n sleeps. Cian Prince Charming.

As we walk from the bustop, I juz can't stop lookin at him till I tripped n fall. Hahahahahaha!! I can't stop luffing, but Prince Charming didn't even smile. He helped me up n make sure dat I'm fine. Isn't that sweet! Reached my place at 8, Prince Charming needs to as his family is fetching him at Cwp. A few mins after Prince Charming left, my biggest enemy cam to see my mom! Urgh! I still can't ferget wateve happened dat dae! I'll promise I'll do wateve it takes to bring my Ayah'a name up again!

Okie enuff abt dat! Currently I can't sleep. Mishin Prince Charming. He's already asleep. I can't wait to meet him later. I really can't wait. Actually Prince Chamring was supposed to werk but due to his health he got 3 daes MC. Great or wat?? So I'll make sure I'm goin to hav a quality time wit Prince Charming.

I guess dats it fer now. I wanna continue watching my Manjalara! Okie I'm addicted to it! Wahahahahahha! Mish my Prince Charming!

Signing off
BuBBLy AiNN

Selamat Hari Raya!!!

2008-10-03T20:23:00.000-07:00

First of all Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir n Batin to my family, Bb, Abg Bob n Kak Feeza, frens n also not fergettin all the muslims in the werld!! Niwaes dis year's raya was awesome! Okie aniwaes petang raya was really sad fer me as I can't breakfast wit the whole family. I ate and cried at the same time. Everyone was at home n I can't join them. Yeah I've gotta werk. Wat can I do.

But that doesn't mean its d end of the werld!! Hahahahaha!! The whole family came to fetch me at 2+ in the morning, so sweet of them. Reached home at 3 am. Really tired! I went straight to bed witout havin my so called supper. Woke quite late the next mornin as everyone overslept. Hhehehehe. I'm the first one to take my shower. Den adek. Den followed by the rest. Hmm.. Ihav to do all the make up fer my mom n sisters. Wat can i say the make up artist of the family! Wahahahahahahahahahahaha

As usual I'm the last one to get ready! So everone has to wait fer me. Hehehe sorry guys. Dis is the part where I can't do very well. Seek for forgiveness to the elderly. I almost cried but still i can thn hahahaha!! Den we're off to the first house Nenek Tijah's place. Had my lunch, kueh eating time. Took some pics lah. Den went to the sec house as Nenek Som was at Cik Ju's place.

Met Busu's family. Took alot of pictures wit them. Wahahaha! Well wat can I say we are close from small till now! Enjoys the pics fer now!! Hehehehehe!!

Selamat Hari Raya

Me n Kak Lynn

Ibu's sleepy face n Me

Adek n Me

Me n my Fisrt Bf Hahahaha Ayah

The Three Preciaous Daugther of Yaacob n Jamelah

Juz another pic of us

Baby Bro Fauzi n Me

The Fantastic Four that can never be separated!

Me n Beloved Busu

Okie enuff of the pictures. Currently its already the third day of raya n I haven't got the chance to meet my beloved Prince Charming. We didn't meet fer almost a week! Oh God i really can't do dis! I really mish him! Aniwaes yeah Prince Charming has been werkin fer 2 weeks. I'm proud of my Baby! But still I'm not that happy as I can't spend my time wit him! It seems dat Prince Charming is gonna b much more buzier den me. Hmm wat can I do. Thats wat Prince Charming to do.

Its been a long time we've not spend the whole day together. Hmm.. The last time was b4 I was bz n its like a few months back. We didn't even celebrate our monthsary animore. I miss all those time when we did! Hmm.. Things have changed now n I'm not used to the changed. What should I do.. Or.. What can I do? I have to wait I guess. Hmm.. I really miss him.

Yeah he dun really like or should I say he DUN like at all when I'm blogging, especially abt him. I hav no other choice. I dun hav any frens to share wit. I dun wan to share wit my sisters. I dun want to b a burden to my siblings n also especially my parents. Dis is the oni place where I usually let all my feelings out. Nowdays I dun even had the chance to share wat I felt wit Prince Charming. He's to bz wit his werk n family. Well I dun mind but still I need some of his time.

Well next week, me Kak Lynn Abg Saiful n Prince Charming will be goin out together. I hope the plan will go smoothly as we've planned. I really can't wait to see my Prince Charming in his baju kurung. OMG!! I must b melting. Hahahaha. Fer now he's ignoring me. I'm really bored to death now. Hmm.. when can I meet my Prince Charming.

Evryone is out to jln raya except fer my family. Even Prince Charming. Hmm.. Its really bored wit notin to do at home. I wonder when will Prince Charming will b comin fer Hari Raya. Well I'm not goin to his place as he is not ready yet. I myself not sure y. Hmm.. Kak Lynn asked me y not. We've been together fer 8 months already n y is he still not ready. I dunnu wat to do. Should i juz wait fer Prince Charming to get ready or to keep buggun me to bring me to his place. Wat should I do??

I'm confused rite now. Well I tink dats it fer todae. Aniwaes I'm goin to further my studies in Business Management. Wish me luck yeah. Fer now I will oni do the make up fer Sultanah Bridal n Boutique. I no longer werk there everyday! Yippie no more stress from Kak Su! Hehehehehe!! Mish Prince Charming like hell! Hope he will call me later. Haiz.. I really hope dat he noes dat he really mean so much to me. Love eeu Prince Charming!

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Random Entry!!!

2008-09-21T01:45:00.000-07:00

Hello ppl!! Ok dis is goin to b a short update as I'm curently at Busu's place! Hahahahahaha!! Ok currently I juz came back from werk. Talked to Bb juz now fer awhile den continuing updating (Wit Fauzi next to me!). Okie we r left wit 9 more days to Raya!!!! Wohooooooo! Collection time!! Wakakakakak!! But I'm already werking n I need to give the young ones! Including Bb actually wahahahahaha!

I'm really lookin ferwerd to dis year's Raya! As I'm celebrating wit Bb! OMG I can't wait! Wearing the same colour wahahahahaha!! Well preparations at home is not even done yet! Hmm been bz werking n I can't get the chance to clean the whole house! Urgh!! Cian Ibu! Aniwaes my baju Raya is away in Jakarta. I hope it will get back here in time! Pls! Its gonna b the baju I'm wearing wit Bb!

Tomorow gotta werk again! Oh my, how I wish I could go on a relax holiday! Wit Bb mayb, Wakakkakakakakaa!! As if Ibu would let me to! Hmm gonna update soon.Wanna go to sleep now later have to bgn sahur!

Mishin Bb like hell wakaakaka. He's gonna start his attacment next week. Allthe best Baby! Muackz!

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BuBBLy AiNN

Hello People!

2008-09-12T03:25:00.000-07:00

Omg!! I really left dis blog fer so long!! Sorry dear blog! Hahahaha!! Been bz wit werk especially! Currently we hav to put a stop to ALL the pengantins to be! Hahaha as its fasting month so there r no weddings goin lah! Niwaes Selamat Berpuasa to all the muslims in the werld!

Alhamdullilah I got to see another Ramadhan, not oni dat I got to celebrate Ramadhan wit my love ones especially Bb. Dis upcomin Raya is goin to a meaningful one as I'm gonna celebrate it wit him! Alhamdulillah I've been fasting fer less den a week haha. Yeah u noe I noe lah kan!

Currently juz came back from Geylang. Went to buy Bb's baju melayu. I've already bought mine! N I'm so loving dat baju! I'll oni upload the pic when its alrady Raya! Hahaha. So the semangat dis year! I've already got my hair done fer ur info! Hahahahahaha! But Bb said i look so selenge wit dis hairstyle! Hahahaha but is ok as long as u still love me ok bachin!

I've bought myself a handbag too! Aniwaes Bb bought himself a brand new fone! I wanna get a new n the same one as Bb! Touching lah kan Sama sama Same same! Hahahaha! When to bugis to breakfast wit Bb at Raffles Hosp's Banquet den off to Geylang si paku Geylang. Wahahahaha!

After buying Bb's baju melayu we juz alk around n saw dis one booth doin keychains. We decided to make ourselves one each. I has his name n he has mine, isnt it sweet! Went to Joo Chiat to Bimla to get Bb's mom a present as her bdae is comin. Helped Bb to chose a brooch fer his mom. Hopes she likes it. Went to Teh Tarik to eat den jln2 abit more den off to Coffee Bean. Hav a drink n took some pictures. Bb send me till Dhoby Ghaut only as its already late.

Now I'm mishing my Bb so much! Urgh gotta werk later! So freakin tired!! enjoy the pics people!

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BuBBLy AiNN

Random Entry!

2008-07-11T23:06:00.000-07:00

Sorry fer not updating my blog fer such a long time! Hahahaha!! Well, I've been bz wit family, werk n yes of corse my one n only Prince Chamrning! I'm excited as Kak Lyn's event is left in a week. Everything is ready but I still hav no confidence to do the make up fer Kak Lyn. Yeah as all my relatives r gonna b dere! Oh Allah pls give me the strengh! But aniwaes thankz Kak Lyn fer believin me!

I'm also excited coz me n Bb gonna b together fer 6 months!! Can't wait fer the day to come! Yeah I noe ppl mite find it funny, 6 months n I'm happy like its gonna b 6 years! Wahahaha! Well I dun even care wat ppl r goin to say or think coz I dun give a shyte at all! Aniwaes things have been good between me n Bb. Alhamdulillah.

I'm bored currently, Bb is out fishing wit his fren, everyone at home is asleep. I dunnu wat to do now! Gotta werk tomolo but yet I'm not sleepy yet to go to sleep. Mish my Bb so much now. Gonna b very bz till late August!

Update soon!! Love Bb so much!

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BuBBLy AiNN

Random Entry

2008-06-24T22:36:00.000-07:00

Sorry fer not updating my blog. Been very bz spending time wit family n of corse my one n oni Prince Charming. First of all congrats to Aisyah n Firdaus who juz got married last Sunday. Went wit Bb, Naz Ain, Fique n more of my frens. Its been a long time I saw Naz Ain. Aniwaes Aisyah look stunning wit her baju Jawa. Hmm, when isit goin to b my turn?? Hahahaha! I heard Wati n A'syur got married last March, follwed by Aisyah n Firdaus. The next one will be Sabby n Faizal.

Aniwaes my family had been very bz as dere's gonna b a big event comin up next month! Kak Lyn's engagemant ceremony. Whole family is so excited n can't wait fer the event. Aniwaes its Kak Lyn's engagement ceremony cum Ibu's 55th bdae. I'm gonna do the make up n stuffs fer Kak Lyn. Adek will be doin the gubahan Ibu n Ayah will be doin the food as usual!

Alhamdulillah me n Bb r gettin better now. Been spending alot of time wit Bb. I'm counting down the daes, 5 more daes n its our 5th month. Hmm.. time flies really fast. Still had no idea where to go. Hopefully I'm not werkin dis Sat. Bb n me tot of havin a picnic juz fer 2 of us. Hope everything will go as planned. Currently I'm chanttin wit bb on the MSN. Been cleaning the whole house todae do the laundry.

I tink dats it fer todae. Mishin Bb like hell!!!!

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BuBBLy AiNN

Confused!

2008-06-12T20:25:00.000-07:00

Bored bored bored! Didn't werk fer the past few days. How I wish I have somtin to do now! Hmm been cleaning the whole house wit Ibu n Adek yesterday. Shifting stuffs, new position of furnitures.

I've been doin alot of thinkin abt my werk, family n yeah of corse him. We've been quarrelling non stop. I confessed to him the other day abt not bein the old him. Instead of accepting the fact that he's not bein the old him, he blame me fer bein too bz wit werk.

I really thought he would understand my situation. He's becoming more n more unreasonable. I really dunnu how to explain to him. He thought my schedule would b a fix one. I myself didn;t expect my schedule to b like dis.

After the quarrelling n stuffs d other dae, we gave us another chances to start all over again. Followed him to the gym to train Kak Lynn n the gang. Den went back home. I was supposed to meet him again yesterday but Ibu asked me to help her at home so I cancelled the plan of meeting him. He went fishing again yesterday. I dun mind him goin but he's not tellin me his plans in advance.

First thing he told me he would b goin alone. He msged me oni when he's already on his way to West Caost. Meeting his fren dere. He told me dat it was a last min plan. I kept quite. Fer me its ok as long as u tell me in advance. Sec thing, he msged me sayin he's goin to Punggol. Its was a last min plan also, he's fren will b driving. He told me he will b goin back by 1am as he wants to meet me todae den he told me abt 2+.

I msged him abt 2.15am askin him wat time is he goin back. He's not goin back he will be back oni in the morning as his has to werk. He didn't sleep the whole nite n he wanna spend his time wit me the next day? Hahahaha! He'll be very cranky when he doesn't hav enuff sleep. Guess wat we didn't even meet todae. He told at 12.24 pm todae he wanna shower den get ready n b at my place.

B'coz of him, I cancel the plans I had wit Ibu. I waited till I fell asleep, abt 3+, I called him n guess wat, he juz woke up. He should at least told me dat he wanna sleep first. It feels really suckz when somone u've been waiting for to meet is not even ready yet! We end quarrelling again. I was rude to him juz now. I juz hung d fone like dat. He's trying to put all the blame on me now. He's trying to find my faults. Everything has its limits. I told him I've been tolerating wit his excuses since yesterday n dis is wat he reply:

'U nye pasal uh, sape suroh u thn??'

It reallly hurts after reading that msg. I can't take dis animore. I really feel unappreciated. After all I've done fer him, dis is wat I get in return. I really miss the old him, the msgs in the mornin, I miss everything in d past. Everything change juz bcoz I'm too bz fer him. I'm not goin out to find entertainment but I'm werkin. Y can't he understand. I've been cryinhg the whole day even typing dis entry I'm still crying.

I dunnu wat to do now, to stay or to leave. I'm really confused now. Staying still gonna hurt, leaving will b even worse. I really miss him. I hope everything will b fine soon. Dats it fer todae, OMG I cant stop crying.

Signing Off

BuBBLy AiNN

Random Entry

2008-06-07T23:17:00.000-07:00

Wat a boring day today! Didn't go to werk as I'm not feeling well! Currently I'm missing my Bb like hell! He'll be back by tomorrow but still I can't wait haha! Dis mornin alot things happen at home. Wat goin on wit our family? I hope everything will b fine soon!! Ibu did a very nice breakfast lunch n dinner wahahahaha!

Did notin much today, woke up very early in the mornin, quarrel wit Kak Lynn n the rest like hell. Then I took my breakfast wit Adek then watched Duyung but abt half an hour later Duyung watched me! Wahahahahahaha. Woke up abt 2+ took my shower den get my hair done as I got notin to do. Took my late lunch den practice my make up skills again. Took my dinner den watch tv wit Ayah Ibu n Adek.

Currently I'm updating my blog n surfing the net. I mish my Razi like hell!! Wahahahahahaha!! Aniwaes I can't stop singing all the songs from Om Shanti Om! Wahahaha!! OMG! Its been a long time I'm last addicted to hindi movies! Wahahaha. The song on blog now is my fav song from that movie wahahaha. I can sing this song werds by werds. Well done Ainn not bad wahahahaha. Even Ibu n Adek is addicted to dis song wahahaha!!

Update again soon!! Love Razi so much!!

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BuBBLy AiNN

Down!!!!

2008-06-04T22:22:00.000-07:00

Feelin very down rite now! Aniwaes sorry fer not updating fer the past few daes. Yesterday followed Ibu n Nenek to Jb, den we end up in Ayer Hitam. Nenek bought alot of stuffs. Ibu n me choose alot of stuffs fer her too. Went around alot of shops, browsing things around. I really love one of the black n silver Bunga Paha. Its freakin nice!

We spent abt 3 hours at Ayer Hitam. Den we went to Angsana to do some shoppin! I bought alot of cds including my OM SHANTI OM!!! Wahahahahaha!! I wanted to buy Ayat Ayat Cinta but in Msia the movie is not out yet at the cenimas. Its ok I'm still gonna wait no matter wat!!! After dat went to Perling Mall, Nenek wants to buy a clock fer Uncle Ali, juz like her's at home.

Browsing tru the watches, den one of this ELLE Studio watch caught my eye! I really love the watch. I beg Ibu like hell. Ayah like the watch too! N guess wat?? Nenek bought it fer me! Enuff bout yesterdae. Abt todae! I'm really down rite now. Waitin n waitin n waitin. Waited fer Bb's reply from 2.22 pm till now. N I've waited fer 8 hours now. As usual, Bb have been spending more time wit frens n fishing.

We were supposed to meet todae. Its seems dat Bb can't understand wit wat I meant n want. He made me a promise, he will stop doin wateve I dun like. I dun mind him goin fishing but not everynite. When I say no he would say dis dat. Ever since I was together wit Bb, not even once I've spend my time, goin out or anitin wit my frens. NOT EVEN ONCE! Y can't juz he understand. He's goin to Msia again dis wkend. It looks like I have to move ard witout him again. It sucks ok movin ard witout his sms at least. Like I'm feeling rite now.

Sometimes I wonder if he really loves me. I juz dun feel it like b4, fer the past few daes. He's not listening to me animore. Now dat hes gone fer a 8 hours, I had no other place to turn to. Not even a fren. I really miss Bb. The last time I met him was last week. I really miss him. I need him rite now. I miss his hugs, his kiss, holding his hand I miss everything abt Bb. Its seems that things didn't werk out dis daes.

Like the other day, on Monday if I'm not mistaken. I was hoping dat he will come over to my place to meet me, but no. He didn't, to tell the truth, I'm really disappointed actually. I really miss him. I didn't bring dat matter up as I dun want to b quarreling. I really miss him, nowdaes I have to ask him if he misses me or not. He's not like b4. I have to ask him everything. I really miss the Razi I knew last 4 months.

Hopin everything will b fine like b4.

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BuBBLy AiNN

HAPPY 4TH MONTH!!

2008-05-29T23:57:00.000-07:00

Happy 4th month to me n Bb!! Alhamdulillah.. Still goin strong, infact stronger n stronger each day. I already started to miss him on my way home juz now. Went out wit Bb to spend time wit each other. Went to Centrepoint to collect the present I bought fer Bb. Bb went to the toilet n I rushed to Famous Amos to collect wat I've ordered! Ran back up to check on Bb. I waited fer so long n he's not dere. I wanted to cry coz I can't find him.

Went out of the shoppin centre n dere he is. Bb was not feeling well actually. I tot of goin back home straight as he was not feeling well, but he insists on watching movies. We went to Ceneleisure to watch movie. At first we decide to watch Ayat Ayat Cinta but we end up watching Narnia. B4 the movie, we had dis small argument abt LUNCH!!! Wahahaha funny rite. I really cried hahahaha, but oni fer awhile. Went in to the theatre as it was already time.

Durin the show, I had to explain to Bb wats goin on as he didn't watch the first Narnia. He really thought its a boring show but he ended up loving the show. After the show, we went to Bedok to have our dinner as Ibu n the rest were at Khan Shaab. We took the train n went to Bedok. When we reached, they are already done wit their dinner, so they had to wait fer me n Bb hehehehe. After we finished we sent Saiful back home den sent Bb to Geylang so that he can take his bus dere. I feel really sad leaving Bb dere all alone.

Reached home wash up, watch The Contender waited fer Bb's sms n getting ready fer bed. I really mish Bb! Happy 4th Month dear hope u like the cookie. Love u so much! Loving u more n more every single day.

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BuBBLy AiNN

Miss Euu Like HELL!!!

2008-05-24T23:24:00.000-07:00

I'm missin Bb like hell currently. He's in Msia n gonna b dere till Mon I guess! I really miss him. Alhamdulillah everything is fine now. We're back normal. Aniwaes I'm really sori fer not updating fer a long time. As usual, been bz. We r gettin more n more clients. Alhamdulillah.

Yesterday I had class, Ain was my model, pity Nan had to wait fer her fer a long time. I'm hapi fer them as the r gettin engage! Congrates u guyz! As u sual my make up was GOOD! But doin of Ain's hair was suckz! Wahahaha pity Ain, she had to go back wit hard hair hehehehe. She bought me my bdae present which was suppose to be given 1 month ago hehe. Thankz aniwae, I like it so much!

Went back alone, I tot Ibu would fetch me BUT Ayah was still sleepin. Well I tot its ok as I need somtime on my own. Goin ard witout receiving Bb's call or msgs, I felt so empty. I can't do things witout Bb. Can't concertrate wit my werk n class. I took 168 back. I cried tru out the journey hehehe. So paisey, lucky no one saw me. Hehehehe.

When out juz now wit Ibu to buy a baju fer myself. Hmm den went back home. Clean my make up box n I'm gettin ready fer bed now! Miss my Baby so much!!!!!!!!

Signing off

BuBBLy AiNN

Busy!!!!

2008-05-12T21:53:00.000-07:00

Urgh!! So fucking confuse!! Firstly I'm really sorry fer not upadting fer more den a week! As usual I'm very bz lately! Yes VERY bz!! I hav no time fer family n Bb. My family keep surpporting me n didn't mind me bz werking but pity Bb, I really hav no enuff time to spend wit him.

Talkin abt Bb can make me go crazy!! We've been quarrelling like fer more den a week I guess n it SUCKS! Bb been speding more time wit frens, but I dun really blame him lah coz I'm really bz n hav no time fer him, but dat doesn't mean he can do somtin N didn't tell me! He went fishing on the Sat nite till Sun morning WITHOUT telling me!!!

Well I dun mind u goin Fishing lah but den at least tell me! The reason fer not telling me was, 'Ala I tau u tdo nnk disturb'. Baby I dun tink its a gd reason! No more next time! Now currently I'm waitin fer his sms fer like more den 3 hours. I seriously hav no idea wat's goin to happen next. I juz dunnu y we've been quarrelling. I'm sick of it. He always pretend notin happen, especially when i wanna tok things out.

I'm really sick n tired of crying every nite thinkin wat's goin to happen next.Mayb wat Kak Lynn told me last time is true. Relationship b4 3 months was the best, but after dat both will show their true colors. I really hope everything will end n we will b like b4. I hope so!! Its tired k crying every nite!!

I gotta turn in soon werking tomolo!! Urgh!! I miss my baby like hell!!!!!!!!! Oni god noes wat's gonna happen next! I really miss Razi..

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BuBBLy AiNN

Sick n tired

2008-05-01T23:17:00.000-07:00

I'm sick n tired of crying!!! Crying infront of people!! Especially infront of my family! I'm really sick n tired!! Oh Allah.. When will all dis end.. *Sob* I really miss him..

Update soon. Hapi belated 3rd month anni... :"(

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BuBBLy AiNN

Karaoke!!!!

2008-04-20T23:06:00.000-07:00

Juz came back n i'm really tired!! Been very bz fer the past 3 days. As usual had class at Kak Ida's place. Friday my model was Yati, ok lah she's good fren lah. She has been helping me by bein my model since I was in Cosmoprof. Thankz biatch! Did 'soket' fer her eye make-up. Its abit diff as Yati's eyes r small but still I manage to do it even tho its not up to Kak Ida's standard. I didn't really focus as I was thinkin of Bb.

Sent Yati back den went home. Wait fer Bb's sms on the way home. Aniwaes Bb had already stop werkin as Bb's time table have now changed N the most happiest thing was, Bb no lnger needs to go to ITE Clementi fer class! I was so hppy when I got to noe Bb doesn't have to go to Clementi animore! No more worries den! Wahahahahaha!!

Second day of class Saturday, Fifye was my model! Met her at Jrg East. She was so eager sia! Wahahahaha!! She reached early. Ayah n Ibu send me to Jrg East, thankz Ibu n Ayah fer everythin. They've been sending n fetching me everytime when I have classes. Met Fifye den we r off to Kak Ida's place. I was the first one to reach at Kak Ida's place, waited fer the rest of them fer like abt near an hour I guess! I really can't wait to wait fer the class to end as I'm gonna meet my precious Baby after class.

I really had a hard time doin Fifye's face, but I'm proud at the same time coz I manage to do it! Kak Ida said mine was perfect. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Fifye was so happy wit the make up. She went to see her family wit that thick make up. After I've done my packing n stuffs, I called n asked Bb where is he now. I was shocked when he told me he already reached. So sweet of him to fetch me. Meet him at Kampung Melayu den we went to Town. OMG! Its been a long time since I last went dere.

Went to Far East Plaza juz walk ard haha. Den we decide to eat Long John, my all time fav fast food. Wahahahahahaha!! Den we walk to Al-Falah mosque fer Bb's prayers. Den we went to the Fountain of Wealth where we celebrate our first month. We sit dere n enjoy music n the fountain show. Bb keep huggin n biting me! We went back early as Kak Lynn n Adek asked me to buy some food home.

We took train back home. When we reached Toa Payoh, dere's dis one couple took the same train as we r. The way they treat each other juz like how me n Bb treat each other. When I saw the guy bullying the gal, I asked Bb if he noes how he treat me, den u show the couple infront of us. Den dis guy was acting like a matrep in the train den his gf keep callin the bf a matrep. I can't stop luffing. Bb keep pinching me coz he noes wat i was tinkin abt. Wahahahaha.

We reached Admiralty, we straight went to the Bazaar to buy Kak Lynn n Adek 'keropok lekor'. Their all time fav snack. Bb bought some food fer himself too. He bought 'keropok leko' n cheesy hotdog. I wanted to drink bird's nest so much but they dun hav it dere. We walk to my place. Bb ate his food otw to my place. So cute. Reached home, Bb came in to use the toilet fer awhile. Den sent Bb to the door, salam hug n a kiss. Wahahaha! Its a must if not I feel incomplete! Wahahahaha!

Third day of class which is today, Kak Lynn was my model. I woke up late dis mornin. Me n Kak Lynn took the cab to Kak Ida's place. When we reached Haig Rd, we met the rest infront of Bengawan Solo, den Kak Lynn n me went to Cheers to buy some drinks n sweets. Wahahahaha. We start the class late, so we end late too! My werk today was not up to Kak Ida's standard, but still Kak Lynn surpport me as I was not really feeling well dat dae. Can u imagine me goin out witout my EYEBROWS! OMG! The plan was after class we went to Abg Saiful's place as he wanna treat me n Kak Lynn at Beach Rd, so b4 dat we were suposed to go to Abg Saiful's place so dat I can do my make up dere.

End up we went fer lunch wit Ibu n Ayah at the House of Briyani. OK lah not that bad lah the food, N yeah i had no make up on! But I feel so free witout the make up! Been putting on thick make up fer the 2 days! After lunch we, meaning me Kak Lynn n Abg Saiful planned to play bowling so we went to Yishun Safra, but we had to a least wait fer 1 hour coz all the lanes are full. B4 dat i suggest dat we go Karaoke! BUT, they insist of goin fer bowling! At last we went to Orchard Cashbox fer Karaoke! OMG to town wiout make up!! It was Abg Saiful's treat.

I had a great time wit them. We r planning fer another outing n dis time round wit Bb n Adek! Went back by train. Otw back I open my hp inbox, read all the msgs frem Bb n one of dis msg made me smilin non-stop. People might think I'm crazy. OK the msg goes like dis,

Hey syg, HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVSRY! Hmm.. I'm sori fer wat I've done 2 u fer the past 1 month, I tau u da byk sabar dgn I, Bb, although I tau u big secret, that oes not mean that I akan tinggalkan u. Baby, I hope u r happy ngan I.. I tau I uat u mrh, uat u sad. I'm sori k syg. Ni air yg I da simpan 1 month n 10 daes utk gadis pilihan I. Bsok u drink kekekekeke. Bb pape pon I mintk maaf.. I janji I tak uat lagi, esok luse Insyallah kekeeke. K lah Bb till here once aain Happy 1 Month Anni hunney! Signing off

Razi ;)

Sweet kan! Wahahaha really miss those daes! Kak Lynn keep peeping at my msgs! So the kpo! Wahahaha reached Admiralty we took cab back home. Wash up n wait fer Bb's sms! He's havin fun wit his family at Sentosa. Miss him lots!!

Gtg now update soon!!! Lovin u more n more every secs!!

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BuBBLy AiNN

Random Entry!

2008-04-17T22:25:00.000-07:00

Currently I'm watching American Idol n I'm wondering who's goin home tonite. All the best people!! Aniwaes I'm online n juz finished quarrelling wit Bb! Hate it so much! I dun mind u bein jealous Baby but pls be reasonable. I think I'm gonna delete both my Friendster n MSN acct very soon! I'm sick n tired of quarrelling over the same thing. As I promised, I'll do wateve juz to make u happy ok honey.

I still alot of laundry to do. Today I can't do much of the house chores. As usual sms Bb n went back to sleep, hehehehehe. Woke up when Adek gave me a miss call. I tried callin her back but can't get tru. Sms Adek, asked her if she called me. Watch tv while waitin fer her to reply. When to the toilet to ease myself den went back to bed, check my fone n Adek replied askin me to fetch her. She's been sick lately.

I got myself ready n went to fetch Adek. Reached Adek's school, den met Rahim from stall 6. He sells noodles in school. I hate seein his face! Seriously! Went to the office den take Adek home. Wanted to brig her to the doc she didnt want to, but to bad in the evening Ibu forced Adek to see the doc.

Accompany Ibu n Adek to the doc. Can u imagine Adek's tempreture is really high! 40 degrees OMG!! Its freaking high k! Cian Adek! She got an exam tomorrow but she's on MC. Aniwaes I need to do the laundry now! Gtg update soon!!!

Baby I loooooooooooooooooooove eu so much!!

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BuBBLy AiNN

Happy Belated Bdae!!!!

2008-04-16T23:56:00.000-07:00

First of all, I would like to sing myself a bdae song!

Happy bdae to ME

Happy bdae to ME

Happy bdae to ME

HAPPY BDAE TO ME!!!!!

This years's bdae was a meaningful one. Even tho most of my frens didn't turn up but I dun give a shyte coz now den I noe who is my frens n who is not. Well I dun really need any frens anyway. Thankz to people who came to my bdae party. Thankz to Ibu, Ayah, Kak Lyn, Adek, Abg Saiful and also my dearest Bb. Eu guyz rock my werld!!

I was supposed to meet Bb early bcoz we need to set up the tent n stuffs lah but all the plan went wrong. Firstly it was raining! Bb was supposed to get some stuffs from his sis fer the bbq later, but Bb came over to my place first. Kak Lynn n me need to change to plan B. Wahahahaha! We took the cab, together wit Bb n went to Bukit Panjang first to collect the stuffs, after dat we went to Tampines to collect Abg Saiful n also my bdae cake den we r off to Changi.

When we reached Changi, we realised that they actually renovated the place. Even the bbq pits r diff now. We tot Abg Saiful booked at the same place but ist not, so we walk n find out pit. We found our pit, we put our stuff n start to pict our tent. B4 dat me n Bb went to the toilet as Bb was freezing from juz now in the cab. We bought drink fer kak lyn n also fer us. Went back to our pit to pitch out tent. B4 we get on our werk, we ate the puffs that I bought at the Royal cakes at Tampines.

I was bz eating while Kak Lynn n Bb bz setting up the tent n the place. Half way tru, Bb realised that his stuffs is not enuff. We waited fer Abg Saiful n his mom to come den we went to Bb's place to take the stuffs. We took cab to Bb's place. When we reached i waited fer Bb downstairs while he went up. Bb got the stuffs den den we head back to Changi. Bb spent 50 buckz altogether juz on cab.

When reached Changi Ibu, Ayah n Adek has already reached. They were bz setting up the place. Bb continue settin up his tent. Den he also set up the our so called SHELTER! Wahahahahahaahaha!!!! Abg Saiful Was bz starting up the fire, Ayah went to fetch nenek n ibu was bz chatting wit Abg Saiful's mom. ME?? I was bz dolling up I guess wahahahaha!!! Nenek came wit Bibik. Nenek do Roti Kirai n Putri Salat. So Sweeet of her.

Later at nite Uncle Ali n Family came. Kak Liona made sheperd pie fer us. Thankz Kak Liona. Yusuf was so cute! "Aunty, I hav somtin fer u, let me put on fer u." He bought me a bracelet. So cute rite. Kak Su n Kak Murni also came. They also gave presents. Not forgetting my Abg n wifey! N yeah Dila also! Thankz people fer comin! Enjoy the pics fer now!

Cian Bb kene bully

Bz starting the fire!

Ayah n future secd son-in-law gettin ready fer bbq (wahahaahahha)

See how bz they r

Me n beloved Ibu

Nenek n me

Me n Abg Saiful's mom

Adek n Me

Me n bestest cuzzin Kak Liona

Abg Saiful's bdae cake

The bracelet Kak Su gave me actually plus an outfit from Sultanah boutique!

Been spending time wit Bb for the past 4 daes. It was nice. Fetch Bb from skool yesterday. We went to Jurong East to settle Bb's stuff den we went to City Hall. We tot of buying the same slipper from newurbanmale. Lovin lah konon! But Bb's feet is too BIG!! Wahahahaha! Actually kan Bb, the slipper look nice on me! Wahahaha but too bad! We went to Bb's place after dat to put his stuffs n change. Went to the mosque after dat fer Bb's prayers.

Went to Vivo City fer our so call late lunch, den we went to Vivo's newurbanmale coz Bb is still not happy abt the size. Too bad still his feet can't fIt in. Its the biggest size dere they had fer ur info! Cian Bb. We really like it lah actually. We went to Wdls rite after dat. We took 963 bcoz as usual I wanna sllep tru out the journey BUT, Bb keep disturbing me. We end up planning abt out future. Its fun tho, who noes it may b true. So cute of Bb to plan when to get engage when to get married.

When we reached Wdls, we went to Civic centre to settle Ayah's bill as I promised Ayah to pay it fer him but wit his money lah kan! Hehehehehe! Den we saw dis group of MINAHREPS goin around askin people to do their surveys. OMG! One of them keep staring at me. Oh pls u r still young my dear pls go n find somtin better to do other den staring me, well I noe I'm HOT bebeh! Wahahahahaha! They r juz a bunch of young girls.

We took 913 back to my place den Bb follow me up fer his prayers. After his prayers we watch his FAV show, Zero Downpayment. I took my bdae cake n ate together wit Bb. So the manje need me to feed him! Menyampah gitu loh! Lovin Bb more n more n more every single seconds. Sent Bb at the door gave a gd nite kiss n hug.

Today didn't meet Bb coz he's schoolin n need to settle some stuffs. Tomorrow Bb is werkin urgh!! Gonna miss him like hell! Can't wait fer dis Fri n Sat! Wanna get my hands on my models again!! Ouh yeah, I miss putting on thick make up! Congrts to Yati n her elder sis!! Yeay Yati can drive me wherever I wanna go!! Can uh Yati?? Wahahahahahahahahahahahaa!! Love ya biatch!

Gonna miss my Bb fer the next 3 daes. Hopefully Sunday we can meet k Bb. Love u Bb!! Nanti kite plan lagi k berangan lagi ok?? ;P

Signing off

BuBBLy AiNN

Random Entry!!

2008-04-09T22:56:00.000-07:00

As usual been bz lately. I really love my job like hell! Its been my passion oh well! Even tho bein an assistant but still i enjoy it. I got to learn somtin at the same time! Its not easy to make someone look beautiful. Kak Ida said I hav had alot of improvement. She even told me that if I really werk hard in 6 months to 1 year time, I can be as good as her n Fatimah Mohsen. OMG!!

That day class, we learned how to do 'soket'. Well my 'soket' was not good so I took dis opportunity to learn. Thankz to Adek, she was my model on that day. She was a good model on that day. I'm glad that my family has been surpporting me in wateve I do,especially Ibu. She really spent alot juz to let me achieve my dreams. Thankz Ibu! N also not forgetting my Bb!

Been quarrelling wit Bb lately but still we manage to keep dis relatioship. Bb was bein so sensitive lately. Which was partly my fault, always make him wait fer me n stuffs lah. I'm sorry k syg. Thankz fer wat u hav done fer me. Appreciate it alot!

Dat dae went to help Kak Ida at the studio, but b4 dat i went to the boutique to help Kak Su wit some stuffs. As usual I reached at the boutique early! OMG!! It was so not me, waitin fer people. Usually people will hav to wait fer me. As Kak Lynn said "Ini lah balasan nye bile suke uat org tunggu ko!!". Wahahahahahaha!!

Reached the studio, I get all the stuff ready fer Kak Ida. Then I watch Kak Ida get the bride ready. The couple was really frenly. The groom keep playing wit the 'tanjak'! Complaining he's not used to it n wondering if he didn't want put it on. Kak Ida were almost screaming wahaha!! Duh its not complete WITHOUT the 'tanjak'

The bride was really frenly. Keep callin me adek. Adek here adek dere, wahahahahaha. She tot I was 22 n she was shocked to noe that I'm only turning 19. At last the last baju, they had it outdoor. Its time fer me n Kak Ida to look fer food. We didn't follow the couple. Only Abg Lufi n Kak Mai, the camera man n his assistant. They went juz nearby.

Me n Kak Ida went to look fer food. We shared alot of stories n yeah she also gave me alot of advice. Thankz Kak Ida. We went to eat at Sabar Menanti. We had white rice n some other stuffs. It was on Kak Ida. Thankz Kak Ida. After we had our late lunch, we went back to the studio but no one was dere so we hav to wait. Kak Leena n Fudge went to 7/11.

The couple also came back at the same time. We tot they went fer the outdoor wit the car but no! They walk all the way to Taman Warisan. It is near but pity Kak Diana wit the wedding gown n heels. Went up to the studio pack everything n we r ready to go back. Werking wit Kak Ida was really fast. Met Bb after werk. So sweet of him kan to fetch me after werk. Thankz Bb! Love u so much!

We went to Sultan Mosque fer Bb's prayers den we went to Raffles Hospital Coffe Bean. We sit hav our drink n talk abt Bb's new job. After that we went to Bugis to walk around then I saw Abg Bob n Kak Feeza at Bugis. We didn't find anitin nice in bugis den Bb send me home. I wanted to sleep tru out the journey but I can't! Bb keep disturbing me!

Reached home wash up den get ready fer bed. I didn't even wait fer bb to reach home. Sorry Bb. I was so damn tired on that day. Next morning woke up very late! Quarrel wit Bb as usual! Wahahaha. Now everything is fine mayb bcoz now we can't really spend out time together as we r totally bz wit our werk. Mayb dat is the cause y Bb is sensitive dis days.

Very2 tired rite now, been cleaning the whole house everyday!! Whahaha me myself dun beleive it! I'm counting down the daes, 3 more daes to my 19th bdae!!

Signing Off

BuBBLy AiNN

New Job!!

2008-04-02T23:21:00.000-07:00

Currently I'm really busy!! As usual busy wit family, Bb n now also werk!! Wahahahahaha!! Yeah I got myself a job but currently I'm under job-training. I'm lovin it bebeh!! Day 1 went to the studio to help out Kak Fai its tiring lah but its fun too. I help Kak Fai wit the baju n stuffs. Kak Su came to the studio to see me n Kak Fai, she bought us roti prata so dat we can eat when we r hungry.

I accompanied Kak Su to Cosmoprof. We bought some stuffs fer class later. Lucky me Cindy still remember me. I collected my portfolio too. Went to Cold Storage, accompany Kak Su to buy some stuffs fer herself. Went back to the studio to help Kak Fai. I help Kak Fai to get the groom ready as in put fer him foundation n powder. The couple was so irritating. They kept kissing each other infront of us n also infront of the bride's mother.

Me n Kak Fai were like OMG!! Even if u wanna kiss or do wateve u want, at least respect ur mom even if u r already married. She's infront of u guyz n u guyz can do tat? No sense of respect at all. Did the first 3 baju in the studio den d last baju outdoor. Went to Marina South Pier then to Fullerton. In Fullerton people who passed by us congrats the couple, n guess wat they kissed each other again n dis time round its FRENCH KISS!! Under the veil. Kak Fai me n Kak Mai were like okay wateve!! Went back to studio pack up n go back home.

Day 2, went to studio again, waited fer Kak Fai at the studio. She's was late, n also th rest. I reached at the studio early. Even the bride n groom came early. Kak Fai reached abt 15 mins later. We went up set up all the stuffs. Dis time round the couple is much better den day 1. Malay couple lah kan, at least ade adat n LIMITS!! After setting up the baju n stuffs, I went back to the boutique to send some stuffs den back to the studio.

When i reached the studio, I was expecting Kak Fai to be done wit the bride but Kak Fai was havin some hard time doin the bride's hair. She got dis african type of curly hair. Took some pictures of the bride after she was done. We sat n tok fer a while, while waiting fer groom to come back from prayers. He came back wit 2 big plastic bags. He bought all of us at the studio chicken rice n drinks.

Get him ready n took pictures. They changed abt 4 baju n we r done. Lucky us they didn't hav ani outdoor. Trust me outdoor is tiring! Pack up den we proceed to boutique. Waited fer the rest to come coz we had class dat nite. Yati came by to b my model. Love her alot!! She even congratulate me when she got to noe bout tis job. She's the best!! Kak Ida came n we start the class. I was the youngest among all. Fer first class we oni study abt foundation. Applying foundation is very important k! I pity Yati, she came but didn't do anitin. Kak Lynn fetch me frem werk place den sent Yati back home.

First of all, happy second month to me n Bb. Alhamdulillah, been tru alot wit Bb dis 2 months wahahahahaha. Been quarrelling non stop, but still we manage to stick together. Woke up very early dat morning. Clean the house while waitin fer Bb to wake up! He sms me n planned wat time n where to meet. Met Bb at Vivo City, we planned to watch movie but there's a lot of people, wat do u expect its wkend.

End up we didn't watch any movie, we went to Bugis den to Arab street. We went to Victory n eat. Waited fer Bb coz he went to do prayers at Sultan mosque. We proceed back to Wdls coz we were supposed to watch Adek's concert. Reached Republic Poly quite early, we waited fer Ibu n the rest. Met alot of my old schoolmates n yeah teachers too.

The concert was ok but the Malay dance wasn't up to my standard. Not like during my time. Quarrel wit Bb after the intermission which was also partly my fault. Wahaha yes we quarrel on our sec month anni!! But we r ok after dat. Sleep very early dat nite coz I had to go to my werk place, coz I hav another class the next day. Woke up very early as I hav to get raedy fer class. Thankz to Ayah n Ibu fer sending me to my werk place.

Kak Lynn also followed coz she's meeting Abg Saiful in Bedok. Met Yati again in Bedok, had breakfast together wit Ibu n Ayah, den they send us to my werk place. Did foundation, eye shadows n eyebrow. Kak Ida said i was good but still I'm not happy wit my performance. Bb fetch me after dat. Bb I'm sori I was late. Quarrrel wit Bb. He left me at Paya Lebar Mrt all alone. Bb was supposed to accompany me to Busu's place but we end up wit quarreling.

I decided to go to Busu's place alone, so I took the train towards Pasir Ris. I cried throughout the journey. Bb sms me asking me to come back. I tot he wanted to say sorry but he juz wanna give back my house key. I was already at Simei at that time. I had to stop n change to the other platform. I cried again throughout the joourney n dis time time round its very embarassing. Someone hand me a tissue. OMG!! When i reached Paya Lebar, I met Bb outside the train station. I talk to him but he ignored me. I was still crying at that point of time.

I had no other choice but to call Kak Lynn. Its lucky dat Kak Lynn is also in Geylang. I called her crying n complaining to her heheheehehehehe. She came to the rescue. I can't stop crying when I saw her. Everyone were like lookin at us. Kak Lynn asked if we can sit somewhere n talk. We went to Coffee Bean at the S'pore sit there n TALK! Wahahahahahahaha. Waited fer Abg Saiful, den we bought the drinks n talk. We spent our time together till 7+ den we went back hm. Cian Bb, he had to take bus.

Been bz lately so the next update will not noe when! Aniwaes 10 more days to go!!

Signing Off

BuBBLy AiNN

Juz a Random Entry

2008-03-23T23:23:00.000-07:00

Woke up very late todae, coz I slept LATE!! Chat wit Bb on the msn. Hahaha, well wat can I say home phone kene lock so tak leh bergantong!! Wahahaha. Yesterday dinner was a meaningful one. Adek cook all the food of corse wit Ibu's guidance. Well fer a first timer she's not bad even tho Ayah find its abit tasteless wahahahaha. She cook sambal goreng n me soto. Its really nice lah actually.

Abg Saiful came for dinner n he bought Adek n me chicken pie from Polar puff. Thankz Abg Saiful!! We discuss abt my comin up bdae party during dinner. Yeah people I'm havin a party fer my 19th bdae!! Can't wait!! Did my guests list(mcm nak kawin plak wahahahahahaha)n also wat to cook n bring. We juz wanna book a pit but Ayah wanna book a chalet. He's afraid if tat nite might rain, but hopefully it won't rain.

Talk to Bb on theSN till cannot thn wahahaha!! Woke up dis afternoon by his sms. Sweet rite never fail to msg me every mornin or afternoon when he's already up. Thankz bb fer makin my day!! Didn't go aniwhere today so been staying at home since yesterday actually wahahahahahaha!! Clean up the house, watch tv n yeah not fergetting ate ice cream wit Kak Lynn. Too bad Adek didn't join us coz she's havin high fever.

Kak Lynn n me watched Tamil movie today. Its unbelievable coz usually when Ibu watched Kak Lynn n me will asked Ibu not to watch it. When Ibu n Ayah came back from Nenek's place, they were shocked to see us watching Tamil movie wahahaha. Talk to Bb in MSN also today but only fer awhile coz he was bz cleaning his house den he went out rite after dat wit his family.

Kak Lynn n me were talkin abt her wedding during dinner juz now, Ibu bought us nasi goreng from Ghani our all time fav Indian food wakakakakaka!! Alrite back to wat i was sayin, yeah we were talkin abt her wedding, abt the guests, food, deco etc. Ayah interrupt our conversation, sayin he had a list of guests to invite. Kak Lynn doens't wan a grand wedding, she wants her wedding to be simple. I dun really agree too actually.

Well dis is goin to b the first wedding fer Ayah, fer sure he want dis to b a memorable one. Kak Lynn didn't agree wit wat Ibu n Ayah planned fer her. The discussion end up wit quarrelling. Well Kak Lynn, wat Ayah n Ibu said is rite. U should think abt it. Waited fer Bb's reply, n he's at Bedok havin late dinner wit family n now he's back home. Gonna talk to Bb on msn again.

Can't wait to see him tomorrow!!! Miss euu bushukk!!

Signing Off

BuBBLy AiNN

Interview wit Sultanah bridal n boutique!!!

2008-03-22T00:57:00.000-07:00

Juz came back from my ferst interview!! From Sultanah ok!!! N guess wat they accept me as one of their Make-up artist BUT I hav to learn the real make up in the Malay market. Syukur Alhamdulillah!!!! At last I got myself a job. Thankz to Kak Lynn fer helpin me finding all the nums. U're the best!! Ibu n Kak Lynn accompanied me to the interview. Thankz Ibu n Kak Lynn.

Went to Alfiyah to had out so called breakfast + lunch = breaklunch, but b4 dat when to Abg Saiful's place to pick him up den to Bedok interchange to fetch ayah! Ayah is very sweet today, he let me Kak Lynn, Ibu n me to u se the car. He came over to bedok by train so cute rite, till he almost lost. I fetch Ayah at the train station n walk wit him to the car under my umbrella ella ella ella ey ey as it was raining.

I didn't want to go to Alfiyah n eat coz I dun fine any of the food is nice over dere. I wanted to eat at Warung Penyet so much for a long time but still Ayah insists on goin to Alfiyah. Reached Alfiyah, we odered our drinks ferst coz I was so freakin thirsty. I had Milo Dinasour, Kak Lyn had teh 'o' n lime drink, Abg Saiful had hot Horlick, Ibu n Ayah had teh tarik n Green Tea as i said our all time fav!!

Ayah had Nasi Bryani, Ibu had white rice wit Sotong Ikan n paru, Abg Saiful had Roti kirai as usual, Kak Lynn n me had white rice wit Omellete wit mushroom, Ikan bakar n Baby Kailan wit beef. OMG!! It suckz!! Not up to our expectation. Kak Lynn didn't finished our food, sorry Ibu!

We went to S'pore Expo after dat. When we reached, OMG deres to much people n cars till we had a hard time lookin fer a parking slot. At last we found one, we get down from the car n walk to hall 5. I walked wit Ayah, I hold Ayah's hand n everyone keep staring at us. HELLO!! He's my dad lah pls not my bf!

We met Kak Lynn's old fren n Aunty Nor. Den we went to hall 5 juz to see ard. So many people so stuffy!! Buy some food den we sent Abg Saiful back home. Currently I'm missing Bb so much!! Dunnu when to meet him.Miss him so much. We did quarrel yesterday nite, we settled everything nicely n we want to start everything again.

Bb mish u so much!! Can't wait to meet u!!

Signing Off

BuBBLy AiNN

Still Loving Eu Like Before!!

2008-03-19T19:52:00.000-07:00

Life seems to be unfair somtimes. Now I noe the exact reason. Isit wrong to be a lil bit dark? Its a lie if I'm not upset after noing the exact reason, infact I'm still upset abt it, but I have no rights to say anitin. I can't stop people fer not liking me, but I'm sure one day she will like me. Insyallah.

Had a great time wit Bb yesterday. Few days b4 dat, we've been quarrelling which partly was my fault. Fhm2 lah org pmpn kan, emosi sgt hehehehehe. Actually the nite b4 yesterday bb didn't want to go out wit me coz he was upset wit me n he said he didn't wanna meet me. Lucky me, he called me early in the morning juz to wake me up. Coincidencely he had an appointment at the Singapore Sports School.

He got a call dat dae, someone offer him to play soccer wit the national team. Bb yg dpt ako yg excited semcm wahahahahaha. The appointment was at 10 but he called me ard that time so somtin must be wrong. I quickly wake up n get ready. Bb reached my place n still I'm not ready yet. Cian Bb have to wait fer me. Made him hot choco n made him wait again hehe. Bb played online games while waitin fer me.

We went to Kallang to send Bb's lappy. Screen retak, wahahahaha!!! Da bagos lah tu Bb screen retak, lappy ako patah pinggang hehehe. We had to stand all the way from Admiralty to Kallang. Mcm nak patah pinggang ako da lah menses cramp! When we reached Kallang, Bb asked fer directions how to get to the place dat we had to send the lappy.

We took 853 like the lady told us to do so, we took the correct bus BUT we dunnu where to stop! I asked Bb to ask the bus driver but biase lah nak step pandai, bodoh sombong! He didn't asked the bus driver. We stop somwhere far from the dat place we wanna go. We took cab n AT LAST we reached dat place.

When we reached, we took a num n wait till Bb's turn. Guess how much does the lcd cost? I heard $45, I tot Bb is goin fer it but Bb took back his lappy n came back to me wit his lappy n a piece of paper. I was shocked after seeing the price. $845 juz to change the lcd. OMG!! Lebih baik beli lappy baru.

We took bus 23 to Tampines. The weather was really hot yesterday. Like Bb said, 'Yang ako bwk ni puteri lilin'. Wahahahahaha. We had our lunch at Long John Silver, this time round at Tampines Mall no Bugis!! Wahahaha. After lunch we went back to Wdls. We took 969 back. Bb so cute, so the manje! Reached Wdls wait for Ibu n Ayah coz Ibu told me not to go up first.

We both juz spending time looking at each other at my place wahahaha. Watch tv together n yeah continues to play his game! Bb went back abt 9+, sent him down, we sit n tok under the void deck till 11 wahahaha. Bb took 913 to interchange. Waited fer Bb den we tok on msn untill i cannot thn. Sleepy wahahaha!!

Woke up dis mornin, clean the house n do wat I should do wahaha!! I still miss euu Bb!!

Signing Off
BuBBLy AiNN

Fever!!!

2008-03-17T15:33:00.000-07:00

Its been more den a week I last blog. As usual been bz, juz came back from Batam last week. Now I'm down wit fever!!!!! Feelin down currently. Quarrel wit Bb early in the morning which partly was my fault too, till now Bb is not talkin to me! I'm sorry fer bein cranky early in the mornin but I juz can't help it Baby!

Yeah juz came back from Batam. Went wit Nenek and Uncle Ali's family. 3 days 2 nites. I didn't wanna go but i was forced to, but who cares Nenek paid fer everything. Had great time wit Yusof. I did a make-up fer Kak Liona n she like it so much till she slept wit the make up!!

Still lookin fer jobs currently. Went fer an interview at Kak Lynn's place as Admin Asist. Nisa n her manager was the interviewer. The interview went very smooth, but not after her manager came in. She sucks to the core! She said I'm too young fer dat job! Wateve!! Nisa wants me to hav that job. So wat I'm still young but I'm willing to learn.

Meet Bb afer dat at Hbr Frt. Thankz Ayah n Ibu fer sending me dere! Accompanied Bb to his school to send his mc. Bb didn't turn up fer his first paper coz he woke up late!! Went to Mcdonalds n had our so called late lunch hahahahahaha. Bb send me back home rite after dat.

Didn't see Bb fer 4 days including today. We were supposed to meet him today but i spoilt everything i guessed. Bb were supposed to accompany me to see the doctor dis morning but I told him not to come. Its my fault I'm really sorry Baby. I'm not bein myself lately.

Miss u so much!!

Signing Off

BuBBLy AiNN

Happy 1st month!!

2008-03-02T20:34:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. Its been a week i last blog. I've been bz helpin Ibu n Ayah, spending time wit Bb and looking fer jobs. Yeah me n Bb da collect our rings. On last Wed, I had an interview wit Naughty by Nature! Ok it suckz! I had to do a test make up, of corse I'm a bit nervous but who cares I must show them wat I've got. Their make up artist dere were really suckz!! Ask them nicely where can i get the stuffs n dor mcm tanak lyn. Iput everything back n went to meet George n told him dat i dun wan tis job. I took my stuff n leave that place.

Bb accompany me fer the interview, so sweet of him kan. As usual die perangai sikit coz he's hungry n have to wait fer his princess to finish the interview haha. Cian Bb. While waitin he went to Clarke Quay, nak jln2 lah konon tapi ape kan daye ako tglkan Naugthy by Nature. Called him n asked him to come back to fetch me. While waitin fer Bb, I called Asnida to come n accompany me fer a while, as usual gossip lah abeh ape kan wahahahaha. Bb sampai ngan muke yg masam hehe. Cian Bb kene jln panas2.

Talk to Asnida fer a while den, we went to Cosmoprof to collect my cert. Kak Mas called me that morning to inform me that our result has been released. Kak Mas got 80.5% overall. A bit more to distinction. I was excited abt my results but since I'm already out, I dun hav the chance to check my results. Went to take my cert n also choose my pictures fer my portolio. Bb help me picking the nice one but, Bb aset tgk gmbr Chacha n Linda's model!! Geram je ako!!

After collecting my stuff, we wen to Bugis, to hav our dinner n baju fer our first month. We went to Long John coz I've been craving fer Long John since last week. While Bb beli mkn, I called Ayah to asked abt my results, Ayah told me I failed my exams. Jantung ako mcm nak gugur. I nearly cried, Bb came back wit blank face. Ayah told me actually i passed my exams, not only passed, but I got distiction!!!!!!! 91%!! Wohooooooooooo!!

Bb fergot to take the plastic fork, so he went back to the counter to ask fer it. Bb was shocked coz he saw he's ex-gf werking dere. When he went to buy food juz now, Bb didn't see her. She saw me n wave to me, but I juz smile back. I was shocked too coz Bb n me didn't see her. Bb suke!! Ape tak da terserempak wahahaha!! She kept lookin at us when she served the customers. I told Bb, Bb jahat, Bb nak suap ako mkn!! Wakakaka so bad! Slalu kaco Bb, kalo lah kite pi AMK terserempak die how, skali terserempak kat bugis. Kelmarin abg nye, ni kali adek nye. Hehehehehe!!

After our dinner we go jln2 look fer baju n at last beli Superman's polo t. Bb look so cute when he put on the polo t. After we got our polo t, Bb sent me back home. We took 960 to Wdls. We had to stand till bukit panjang, ITS TIRING K!! Reached my place, biase lah mcm nanak alek, dudok bwh blk wahahaha. He sent me back den he took cab back.

Our first month came, n I'm so happy wahahahaha!! Hav to help ibu ferst den aru leh kuar urgh!!! Hmm.. Ayah was late but lucky me, Bb fhm. When I reached home, i rush to the toilet to shower den siap, but as usual Bb had to wait hehe. Sorry Bb, dari firt date sampai lah skrg, Bb aset kene wait je. Put on my make up, my baju n quickly do my hair. When i went down Bb was not dere, Bb wait fer me at the bus stop. Bb mrh ako lmbt wahahahaha!! Went to Admiralty, still Bb mrh, told I'm sori but still he's mad at me.

Nasib baik dlm train Bb is ok. I almost cried, I noe its my fault but I dun wanna quarrel on our happy dae rite. We went to Plaza Sing to hav our dinner. We went to Pizza Hut but we had to wait. We went jln2 n i saw CHARLES N KEITH!! Leh jadi gile ako!! Wahahahaha. Bb pulled me coz he didn't wat me to go! Hmph! Tot of watcin movie but keadaan tak mengizinkan. Bb can't wait any longer, he's so freakin hungry, so we decide to go to Lucky Plaza's Pizza Hut.

Lucky us the called us back to tell us dat we can come now. We walk to Plaza Singapura, Bb walk really fast coz he can't wait any longer. When we reached, Bb place an order, we had pasta, plus mushroom soup plus our drinks. Bb finished my ushroom soup coz I dun really eat mushroom soup. Our pasta came n ape lagi baduk lah!! Finished our dinner, Bb paid. It was supposed to me my treat but Bb nak baya jgak!! Hmph!! I dun care next time its my turn!!

We went Suntec City to jln2 but then all kedai closing down so went to Fountain of Wealth, we sit there juz to enjoy the nite, n of corse taking pictures. After that Bb sent me back home. Kalo leh i dun wanna go home coz I still miss Bb hehehe. Bb sent me back home, its already late, I told him to juz sent me till Dhoby Ghaut but he still wanna sent me to Wdls. We reached Wdls abt 11+ near 12. Terpakse Bb naik cab alek. Nak kasi die duit cab pon die tanak. Happy 1st month Bb!!

Yesterday went to Chai Chee Muslim Seafood to hav dinner wit the whole family. Yelah da lame tak mkn seafood satu family. We had Mee Goreng Seafood, Prawns wit Oats, Sotong wit Oats, Char Kway Sotong, Chap Chai, Omelette wit Shrimp. Ibu n Ayah had Chinese Tea, Saiful had Necafe gajah, Kak lyn had Ice Lemon Tea n Adek n me had our all time fav drink, Green Tea!! Yg lain hapi lah coz dorg dpt mkn free, me n Adek blanje dorg mkn.

Went back after dat, me n Kak Lynn planned to play bowling but Ayah n Ibu disagree, so went to 888 to rent some DVD, den bought BEN JERRY!! Wahahahahahaha!! Ingat kan alek leh conquer tv, skali Ayah tgk bola plak!! Sakit hati!! Chat wit Bb kat msn, we both stay till 3+. Den we both went to sleep.

Wake dis mornin abt 10+ coz Kak Lynn on tv kuat sgt. As usual msg Bb gd mornin sume den tunggu die reply, tak reply2 rupenye2 ppaid abes lah. Hehehehehe. Bb called suroh online den tokk to him sambil2 kemas. Kak Lynn odered canadian pizza juz now we eat together den lipat baju wahahahahahaha!! Kak lyn lipat baju!!!! Ibu n Ayah came back, todae Ibu masak asam rebus yummy my fav!! N now I'm still tokin to Bb hehe.

Hmm, update again soon. Love Bb so much.

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2008-02-24T00:52:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. Todae I'm so freakin hapi coz dpt jumpe B after 3 days tak jumpe wahahahaha!! B look extra cute todae, coz he's been smilin from the moment i met him till he sent me n Adek home. Ok nari kuar kita tak quarrel!! Wahahahaha!! Yeah adek join us fer our dinner, its fun tho.

Woke up very early dis mornin coz i received a miss call n 2 msgs from B. Pagi2 so the manje! Hmph!! Mengalah kan pmpn wakakakaka, but cute tho. Talk to B fer like abt half an hour den went to take my shower, get ready n off to B's place. Took 963, ok the bus got no cockroach, so i did hav peace in the bus juz now wahahaha.

Reached early at B's place. He was like, 'Huh da sampai??'. Cute kan wahahaha. Waited fer him at bus stop. B came down rite after 10 mins gitu wit his Milo. 166 came n we're off to AMK Hub. Reached AMK Hub, tros gi couple lab. He agreed to choose which couple ring he likes but in the end i hav to choose!! Our budget were supposed to b below $100 but i like dis one pair so much dat cost $108. Wahahaha, since B asked me to decide so i chose dat one lor!!

After that we went to esplanade, we took 130 to esplanade. When we reached, ok makin byk bdak2 merepek k kat sane wahahaha!! Notin much dere so we went to Boat Quay, juz to jln2 haha. Terserempak wit Asnida on her way to werk.

We went back to Admiralty to meet Adek. Hmm.. Adek was shocked coz she totI was alone wahahaha, she didn't noe B was wit me wahahahaha. Adek so malu2. We went to Causeway Point n hav our dinner. First we went to banquet, biaselah B's fav place. Luckily penoh wahahahaha!! Dere's dis one guy keep lookin at me n B was really angry n jealous. Wakakaka!! At last mkn Mc D!! I had fillet o fish, B had foldover n Adek had mc spicy.

Cian b sakit cannot eat peacefully wahahaha!! Fer no reason B n Adek ketawe abt wat i fergot, sampai kan B nye chest sakit alek. Cute uh dorg wahahaha!! After dinner, went to Polar, B bounght eclair, den went to Old Chang Kee to buy some stuff fer my family. B sent us back, while waitin fer 913 B keep singing lagu Jamal Abdillah, Adek sambong2 when he sings.

In 913, B still keep singing dat song. Dere's dis indian lady sit beside Adek in the bus, Adek cannot thn. She stinks!! Wahahahaha!! Bile da sampai, cannot hug n kiss B coz adek is dere, mcm tak respect adek kan, so i juz salam him n go up. 2 mins later, B kol me sayin my shades is wit him, so i had to go down n collect it. B sengaje tanak kasi me b4 i go up pasal nak carik alasan wahahaha!! So cute of him! Collect my shades den dpt kiss.

Hmm, now I'm missing my Bb, hehe. Gtg to sleep now!! Love u Bb muackz!! Had great time wit u juz now!!

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2008-02-20T23:21:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. Juz got back from Civic Centre. Accompany Kak Lynn to meet her friends, to discuss fer her project. Nari mood ako suck gile k!! First quarrel wit B, as usual pasal org, n dis time round bcoz of his ex crush. Here the story goes. I was tokin to Kak Lynn n Kak Liona, biase lah kalo cuzzin sume da jumpe gossip!! I received a msg from B, he forwerd the msg that his ex crush sent him dis mornin.

I asked him fer her num, k lah lets not mention her name here, its not nice. Hmm, mule2 B tanak kasi but then nvm lah merendah kan diri lah, baru die nak kasi! Klah i msg her nicely askin her wats the meaning of all dis n she's really rude! OMG!! But too bad lah Razi is mine so F**ck Off B***h!! I really noe how it feels when ur love is not acknowledged by Razi, so back off! She told me dat msg was meant to b sent long time ago, but den y now B***h?? Tak masok akal beb!!

Hmm.. Second, B went to poly to see doc juz now n B mintak transfer to hospital. Ok mule2 he's not in the mood coz of some misunderstanding, pujok bagai nak mati pon die masih tak lyn ok fine tanak lyn takpe. After abt 30-45 mins aru msg sayin 'B, me masih kat hosp, masih ngah tunggu.' Ok lah dat means he's ok lah kan.

Called him, asked him if he's ok or not, of corse lah i'm worried kan. Sape tak syg laki oi!! Oups B, I salah type! Hehehehehe. Ok back to the story, he told me he's ok kene cocok pantat n amek drh. Hahaha padan muke ko B!! After dat, I sms him, called him tak respond n I'm so freakin worried! Sampai nak mkn tak slere ok!! I reached home at abt 7.45 pm, called him again tak ans. Called him again den baru ans!

Mcm tak masok akal kan takkan tdo all the way sampai tak sempat check hp bile da tersadar tu. Hmm, do u noe how worried I was?? Pls eh B, I noe u r sick but den u must remember u r no longer single ok! Hmph!! Third, juz he did sms me but the after 2 sms tros diam. Hmm, I'm trying to tink positively wahahahaha!! He must be asleep by now coz of the medication I tink.

I hope B will b fine by tomolo!! No matter wat ako maceh cyg ko ok!! Miss u BB!!

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BuBBLy AiNN

P.S I Love You

2008-02-19T23:14:00.000-08:00

Juz got back!! Went to watch movie wit B. Hmmm, we watched P.S I Love You. Its a nice show, touching beb!! I wanna cry juz now but thn haha!! I dunnu if B understand dat movie. He's been complaining since morning bout his chest pain. I'm really worried bout it. Org suroh go doc nanak, DEGIL!! Make sure tak baik u must go doc!

Todae was a tiring dae actually, but dpt jumpe B, hapi banget! Penat pon hilang hehe!! Ape tak 2 hari tak meet, others may find it funny uh, but fer me haha da nak gile sey tak jumpe!! Even Naz Ain tegur, 'Eh korg due ni eh mcm tak leh lpas eh'. Wahahahahaaha!! Wat i care u r juz bein jeles coz u dun get to spend time wit ur bf like i do.

Help Ayah fer dis past 2 daes. His helpers r really suckz!! Suckz to the core!! One of the helper is not hapi coz i'm dere to watch them haha!! Hello! Dats my dad's shop not ur dad's shop so pls noe where u stand! U dun like our style of werkin den F**k Off!!

Ouh ya, went to Courts juz now to pay Ayah's bill. Hmm the cashier muke mintak kene pijak!! Hahah!! Ikot Ayah n Ibu to jb to topup petrol. Bile pegi takde prob, bile alek, our car nak kene 100% check! Like mepek kan!! I juz dun understand people at times!!

Fer now i'm missing my BF! Hopefully his chest pain will be gone by tomolo! If not need to force him u see doc! Biase lah bdak degil wakakakakakakaka!! I gtg to sleep now!!

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2008-02-18T00:46:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... Its been a long time I last blog!! Delete everything n re-do everything. Currently, I'm still lookin fer job, n yeah I've completed my course! Diane told me that dae that Lily told her, I did well fer my exams!! Ibu was so proud of me.

Hmmm.. Alhamdulillah, my practical n portfolio went smoothly. Thankz to Ibu n Ayah fer sending me to school on that day n also not fergetting my models Nisa, Ain, Yati n Kak Sharida, n also not fergettin my 2 chubby sisters, fer bein my model at home hahaha!! Fer my 4 model tu nanti boss blanje mkn!!

I was the ferst one to complete my portfolio! Diane was happy wit my performance. I tot i'm gonna finish last coz i was late dat dae. I'm gonna miss all my frens especially Kak Mas, Ila, Ana, Linda, Meldee n Stevani. Hmmm.. Gonna miss those times. Kak Mas hug me b4 goin back. I wanted to cry but i thn haha!!

I would also like to thank my beloved Razi fer fetching me from skool n bringing my stuffs fer me, hehe cian die kene bully!! Even tho u slalu perangai2 mrh2 i still syg u ok!! Syg u sampai bile2!! Wahahahahahahaha

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